"Una na ako, magsabay na lang kayo ni Kenzie paakyat," sabi niya at nagmamadaling nanakbo palabas.
"Ma'am, hindi pa ho nagbabayad 'yon," sabi ng crew sa amin at nagkatinginin naman kami ni Kai.
Inirapan niya ako at naglakad papunta sa fridge at kumuha ng dalawang ice cream at saka iniumang ang phone niya.
"Gcash na lang," malmig niyang sabi rito at binayaran na ang napamili namin.
"Gusto mo bang umakyat na?" tanong niya sa akin at tumango naman ako.
"Ayoko pa. Mauna ka na," sabi niya at natigilan naman ako.
"I can't ride the elevator alone," sabi ko sa kanya at umupo naman siya sa table sa labas ng convenience store.
"Not my problem," sabi niya at sinimulan nang kainin ang ice cream na binili niya.
"Samahan mo ko," pag-utos ko sa kanya at nginisian naman niya ako.
"I'm not your friend, I can say no to you," malamig niyang sabi at nilapitan ko naman siya at padabog na umupo sa tapat niya.
"I thought just say the word?!" naiirita kong tanong at tinignan niya lang ako.
"Ang ganda mo," mahina niyang sabi at natigilan naman ako.
"Kaso ang lakas ng topak mo," sabi niya at sumubo na naman ng ice cream.
Pinanood ko lang siya hanggang sa mangalahati siya sa ice cream niya.
"Ibili mo ko tubig, akyat na tayo after," sabi niya at ibinigay sakin ang phone niyang nakahanda na ang QR code.
"Ayoko nga, pukpok ko pa 'yan sa ulo mo," sabi ko at humalukipkip.
Nanginginig na ako sa lamig tapos 'tong babaeng 'to nagagawa pang kumain ng ice cream? Hinubad ko ang jacket ni Jay at itinakip sa hita ko dahil yon ang mas malamig sa akin ngayon.
"Nilalamig ka na?" tanong niya at tumango naman ako, hoping that she'd want to go back pero ngumisi lang siya.
"Buti nga. Manigas ka dyan," sabi niya at sumubo na naman ng ice cream niya.
"Kapag nginudngod ko yang pagmumukha mo dyan sa kinakain mo ikaw ang maninigas," sabi ko sa kanya and she smiled devilishly.
"Last time na nginudngod mo mukha ko sa kinakin ko ikaw ang nanigas e," mayabang niyang sabi at nanglaki naman ang mga mata ko.
"You're such a jerk," sabi ko sa kanya.
"Me? I'm not the one who ignored you MONTHS after what we did, and did not even said a single fucking thing about it. You didn't even look at me," sabi niya at nagulat naman ako dahil bigla siyang naging seryoso.
"Tell me, did I do something wrong? Did I make you feel like I'm just using you? Did I force myself onto you?" tanong niya sa akin at agad akong umiling.
Eli was right.
"As cliche as this is, it's not you. It's me," sabi ko at sumandal naman siya. Waiting for what I'm gonna say next.
"You were great. You made me feel so much that night. And not just when we were doing it. You made me feel a lot, when you looked at me, when you saved me, when you would do things for me. Kanina sabi mo, I'm spoiled, my friends do everything for me. You're right, and I shouldn't be surprised with you saying yes to me all the time, but I was. Then I was scared. Because after a very long time, you made me feel other things, rather than just pain," sabi ko sa kanya at nag-iwas ng tingin habang humahangin nang malakas.
"I was in so much pain, before you. Akala ko namanhid na ako, I was in pain for the longest time I couldn't even feel it. I thought I was fine, kasi I was laughing, smiling. I was joking with my friends. Akala ko that's how you should really feel, laughing but it seems like something's not right, akala ko ganon talaga. Until you. You made me feel my heart beat. You made my stomach hurt for laughing. You made me feel nervous. You made me feel whole. You made me feel. Then I was afraid," sabi ko and her expression changed.
