Turns Me To A Hero Loki x reader

Chapter 18 :hurt

It has been a while i regaind my voice but my powers is no where to found
Dr banner say it is normal as i used a lot of my power to heal soo i can do nothing except waiting
I talked with tony about the whole thing and it was a real deep conversation
He confessed that i wasn't his daughter but i am the daughter he wished he had
And he will always see me as his daughter
I cried really bad i really wished he was my real father
I tried to open the book that said for y/n but it doesn't work
Loki on the other hand is...
I don't know he is keeping his distance
And i don't know why but i will give him time
Even if it means that i will suffer
Yeah not just from him ignoring me talking
it is just i eavesdrop again today and i found that he is in love with a girl
He didn't mention her name
He was talking with thor about her
I just felt numbness when i heard them.
Likr my heart is trying to break but i am trying to keep it  all together
My mind is repeating the same words "you don't have anyone".
It hurts.
"are you okay?" nat asked and wanda is next her
Staring at me like i am strange or that thing i am in is strange
"i am fine, don't worry" i said with a tight smile
They looked me i am really bad at lying then my heart stopped
Loki entered the room with a girl
She was smilling up at him while he was staring at me
The eye contact stayed between us for secs minutes i don't know
My eyes are hurting and tears are trying to spill and his eyes
There is nothing, there is no emotion
I got up going anywhere but no to be with them in the same room

Loki's pov

She was hurt
And i am the one who caused this hurt
Fuck i really love her
I can't do this to her
She doesn't deserve someone like me
She is like an innocent flower in the darkest forest
I can't hurt her so i needed to keep my distance even if it means i will suffer
But she was giving space so i had to hurt her so she will hate me she needs to hate me so she can be that innocent flower my beautiful flower
To be kept away from the monster
I am the monster
Odin was nagging me to get married so i found this lady in some streets gave her money so she acts as a good wife for me
I don't even remember her name
Whatever it was
Y/n was the queen of my heart that's why i need her away so she doesn't get worse hurt from me

She looked me with hurt
She ran away from the room
I wanted to follow her tell her she is the best thing thatever happened to me
But i am not gonna be selfish like they think
Not to her

Nat and wanada looked at me with hate
"why are you doing this?" nat asked her voice is cold
"what are talking about?" i answered
"you know what you are doing, she is hurting beacuse of you she is hurting beacuse the thing that called is love that is uncontrolled that she doesn't know how to feel about it, she is hurting beacuse she thinks she is not enough" she looked at me like a monster
And she has every right to look at me like that i am a fucking monster for hurting someone so delicate so beautiful.

Y/n pov

I am the problem, i think i am too ugly to be loved
Oohh i know i am too fat i think i need to lose some pounds so i can be beautiful
Or maybe it is the way i talk
Ik that i need to talk less  i scoofed at the reflection of myself

"miss y/n, your dad is waiting for you in the conference room"   javris said in the room
Okay, javris
I went to the conference room where all the avengers are there with loki and dad and thank god the girl that was with loki is not there
I smiledd
"hi guyss, soo what are we doing today?"
They all looked at me surprised
Wanada looked at me sympathetically
"y/n, we have a mission and we need you to come with us"
"but my power.." i got interrupted by loki
"we will train and they will come back because they are still there and we need you to call your brother"
I ignored him
"dad what do you need from me in the Mission?"

"we need your brother maybe as you said he was the one who send this book"

"what the fuck do you want from me to do?"

The room is silent
"you only need my fucking brother so why did you call me here??"
I shouted

" y/n i need you to calm down and listen to me , the Mission we are going to take down a place  related to hydra so we will need to know what is in the book that we think your brother is related to cause we think it relates to your powers "loki explained
I looked at him with cold eyes
And got out of the room
I went to the training room and started screaming wanting to feel any emotions so my fucking powers return
But all I felt was hurt and sadness
I screamed it all like I wish someone will understand the pain
Then everything turns black

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Hii bestiees so I am really sorry about teh story I really didn't have to time to write or anything as my father passed away a couple months ago so it was hard for me to do anything I am sorry but don't worry your girl is back I will try to upload moree
Thank you for reading this story

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