𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙢𝙮 𝙡𝙖𝙙𝙮 | 𝙟𝙤𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮

ᴅɪᴀʀʏ ᴏғ ᴀ ᴍᴀᴅ ʙᴀɴᴅ | ᴏɴᴇ

it's 1993 now ... ever since that day happened it's been on repeat in my mind. i forget about it sometimes, but when i do think about it ... i think to myself & say "what if it happens again & the gun is loaded ?" what will i do ?

kci says my name bringing me back to reality, we were on the phone ... him & the boys were working on the "diary of a mad band" album at the time, he calls me just to make sure i'm good.

july 12th, 1993

k-ci - baby, you good ?

me - yes i'm fine .. just day dreaming.

k-ci - mhm okay, i'll be home later on

me - yea yea ik

k-ci - don't yea yea me girl

erin laughs

k-ci - nah but, i'll see you later

me - see you later, i love you.

k-ci - i love you more.

i hang up

i had to go & pack because i was going out of town later on to help one of my bestfriends from north carolina who was moving up here (new york) to pack her things. her names tamira, we've been friends since high school. we just started to get back close how we use to be not that long ago, ill be going out of town for about 4 days.

i go & pack my bag, after that i waited until kci came home to see him before i go.

he comes home & i come to the door, he greets me with an embrace as he says.

k-ci - when you suppose to be goin to nc ?

me - in a few minutes, why ?

k-ci - just askin ...

me - mm yea, okay. *i say as i begin to walk back to our room*

k-ci - "lonely days are here again" *he sings*

i just look back & laugh as i added on

me - kci shut up.

kci chuckles as he walks to the kitchen.

i go get my bag & make my way to the kitchen to get one last bye from kci before i leave for a few days.

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kci was getting something to drink from the fridge when i walked in.

me - alright, i'm about to leave *as i begin to put my arms around him*, don't make this place a mess.

kci - yea yea okay, all ik is you better page me once you land. *he says as he hugs me back*

me - i will kci. *i say as i roll my eyes*

he kisses me, after that he walks me out the door of our apartment. i get in the driver seat of my black bmw 325i that kci bought me the year before, i put my bag in the passenger seat & i start the car. as i'm driving to the airport i have the radio on, this one song begins to play ...

i need a piece of mind, i'm stressed out today ..

i knew exactly who it was, my best friend bobby ... i miss him so much. him & whitney's wedding looked beautiful! i couldn't make it because of kci *as i roll my eyes*, he didn't want me to go for some odd reason...

i make it to the airport i go through TSA & all of that stuff, i land in NC at about 3:30 something i left NY around 12-1:00. i got off the plane & go to the telephone pole to call tamira.

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she picks up after like 7 rings ...

tamira - whose this ? *she says answering her phone as she continues to wash the dishes*

me - erin, i just landed in nc.

tamira - oh hey girl! i'll come & get you.

me - okay that's fine, what time you think you'll be here ?

tamira - probably about 30-45 minutes

me - okay, i'll see you when you get here

tiarra - okay cya!

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after that i call kci ... he picks up after 4 rings

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kci - what's happenin, whose this ? *he says answering the phone next to the couch*

me - who else ?

kci - hmm, lemme think ..

me - mmcht, kci stop playin.

kci - i'm just messin witchu, ik it's you girl *he says as he leans his head back chuckling*

me - yea alright ...

kci - how was your flight ?

me - it was coo, i mean i didn't really do anything.

we talk for about 5 minutes, after that i walk outside to where everyone gets either picked up or dropped off.

tamira arrives about 14-17 minutes later.