[BL] (MTL) Cannon fodder slag attack and whitewashing manual [Quick travel]

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    It's just too normal.

    Shen Muchuan's eyes trembled, he couldn't believe it, his heart was almost frozen in an ice cave, a strong sour feeling came up from his throat, and even the ability to speak and think was completely deprived.

    Chu Yan didn't hear the other party's answer, and there was a look of uncertainty and confusion on his face, but it was really fleeting.

    Shen Muchuan saw his reaction in his eyes, and his heart trembled silently. Finally, he couldn't restrain himself any longer, pressed his hands firmly on his shoulders, and said hoarsely: "When? Why didn't you tell me? "

    His voice was mixed with many inexplicable emotions, as if rolling in the depths of his throat.

    Chu Yan was silent for a while, as if he was guessing the meaning of his words. He was stunned for a few seconds, as if he wanted to refute something, but he probably felt that it was useless, and there was a blank expression on his face. His complexion was not good-looking at all, and it was even paler at this moment.

    Shen Muchuan looked at him, his breathing trembled, his eyes were red, and for a moment he felt that the softest part of his heart had been stabbed severely, accompanied by paralyzing pain, constantly stimulating the beating nerve endings.

    2333: [Master Host, so you...can you see it now? 】

    Chu Yan smiled, 【I can see it now, but I couldn't see it just now. 】

    2333 has nothing to say, pretending to be no different from a real blind man, the host, he is really good at what he does.

    Shen Muchuan changed the hands that were pressing his shoulders to hold him tightly, but his hands could not help shaking slightly: "If I hadn't found out, would you have planned to keep this from me?

    " Almost all of my emotions poured out at this moment, both despair, pain, regret and worry. He couldn't be sure what Chu Yan was thinking. In fact, he still couldn't understand it, whether it was five years ago or now. Just like before, he originally thought that Chu Yan loved him as much as he loved him, but it was just a trip back to the country, and everything deviated from what he thought... "Or, you don't need it at all?

    " Tell me..." Shen Muchuan said with difficulty: "I also don't think about my feelings when you did those things five years ago, so how can you do it now?" There was a cicada singing outside the window, the sound was distant, but the night was as dark

    as As thick as ink. Chu Yan's expression moved slightly, his lips trembled heavily, and his expression was almost pale that could not be concealed.

    Shen Muchuan's chest trembled, but he couldn't bear to say any more. He tried his best to hold back the emotions in his heart, poured a cup of hot water and put it in front of him, then turned and went to the balcony.

    Although it is summer, the temperature at night is a bit low. After Shen Muchuan made a phone call outside and made an appointment with a doctor, the string that had been tense seemed to break suddenly without warning. Looking at the night like a long river, However, involuntarily, bad thoughts that were almost masochistic gradually emerged in my heart.

    His thoughts were messy and illogical, and memories rushed over him. In an instant, he seemed to have returned to five years ago. At that time, he was abroad, and he suddenly received the news of his parents' car accident. When he got off the plane, he called Chu Yan several times. One phone call, but none of them can be dialed...

    Or maybe it's like going back to every night in the past five years that was as silent as this moment, as if in the mud, surrounded by thick darkness, and no light can shine through. do not come in. ...