I'm afraid I couldn't forgive you if you "left." Though that wouldn't stay quite true to my words of following the upbringing of my days. I suppose if you did I shall lay in the prettiest field I could find until I meet my peaceful death; my stomach turning inside out and brain ingesting itself.
I'm not so sure that such a thing would happen though. Not after everything that's been shared. Though I hope the day after I die I have no secrets of the universe, and likewise for you yourself. I'm afraid of the things in my mind getting out, but it's best to be shared. I don't even remember what I did without you, though it feels like a few days since we met.
I love, I do, though painfully. I take it the agony is nice, while most certainly not intended. My idea of peace takes two different approaches. They're oh-so-unidentical beliefs coming from the same side of one person.
The dejection is fun. The feeling part of the picture isn't nice at all quite honestly. The only thing that's nice is the love. The love, the pleasure, the butterflies, but not every positive emotion. I'm not a fan of the happiness, or joy, or pride. I simply want the affection and to stay affectionate.
I don't understand mainstream philosophy. No several feelings shall be considered lethal. "Sinful and corrupt" they say, though it makes all the less sense every time it's mentioned. The bigger picture is: nothing will matter by the end of it all, unless we otherwise found a way to outlive a how ball of gasses and flame exploding and causing the quite literally, deadliest event in human history. Still technically not history, as everything will be lost and the supposed history thing will become something not only of the past, but completely discarded with no one to survive and nothing to hear of it again.
What's true has been stated, yet what's unobjective has been said just the same. My thoughts, the same way as many, are biased. My line of thinking might shift from popular belief when I say my mind takes some things and shifts them completely over time while others never change and never will.
