It disappointed me to realize that I liked you.
You were never my cup of tea.
You were too noisy, and annoying.
Far from my type.
After delusionally deciding that you liked me,
I found myself glancing your way,
Just to catch you looking at me.
You always were.
That's when I started noticing you
Even though we barely interacted,
Those small interactions,
Were treasured.
Noticing you was the worst decision I ever had.
I realized that I was just a silly crush of yours.
An affection that i thought was deep;
Turned to be shallow.
An admiration that shouldn't be entertained.
Something that shouldn't be pursued.
You cursed me.
Or maybe,
I subconsciously cursed myself.
I don't know.
I don't want to know.
It scared me,
To think about how deep I've fallen.
How ironic is it for me to fall for you.
To have my heart shattered.
I hate you.
After multiple paragraphs,
This is the last paragraph I'll ever dedicate to you.
