Always Having You

Chapter 1

Flashback
Dean-13
Carson-14
Sam-9

I was with the Winchester brothers, watching TV in a motel, while our dads were out on a hunt. I hated it when my dad left for a hunting trip because I never knew if he would come back. He was all I had left after my mom died on a hunt. Funny thing was she didn't die because of a monster, she was in a car accident on her way back. I'm not sure if that's even true but it's what my dad told me.

"Car.. son..", I heard someone say.

"Carson" was said again. When I looked around it was Dean. I guess I space out and he realized. He was always the one bring me back to reality.

"It's time for bed, " he said.

"I want to wait for my dad to get back tonight," I said

"My dad called said they won't be back till tomorrow," he responded.

"Is Sammy still up?" I asked.

"No, he went to bed about 20 minutes ago, " he answered.

"Oh I wanted to say goodnight to him."

"I know, he told me that but, you were really spaced out, so I told him not to bother you."

"How spaced out was I?" I said, smiling.

"I had to call your name multiple times," he said laughing

"Okay, I'm going to bed goodnight... I hope they get back tomorrow, " I said.

"Yeah, me too, " Dean replied.

End of flashback

I think of that night a lot because it was one of the last times of happiness before everything got complicated.

I'm 27 now, and I've tried to move on from those days, the good days, but, sometimes I catch myself wishing I was still back there. I haven't talked to Dean in six years, ever since my dad died. I still have no idea how or what happened to my dad that night, but Dean was there helping on the hunt. I tried to get him to talk to me about it so I could know what happened to my dad. But, he wouldn't talk to me about what happened. I tried for weeks and eventually he just stopped talking to me. So I left because, well, I was done believing he would tell me. I was done hoping he was still there. That he was still the Dean I loved but I guess something changed that night for him too.

I still talk to Sammy from time to time, just to check in and see what was new in his life. What I knew now was that he was in college at Stanford University. Something he has wanted to do for years, since he was a freshman in high school. I'm glad he was following his dreams and trying something other than hunting like Dean and I are doing. He also has a girlfriend and is really happy with her. I'm hoping one day they will get married.

Anyway, I've been trying to figure out what happened to my dad by myself for the past six years. I'm also saving people who are in trouble, protecting civilians from monsters that they don't know exist or just don't want to believe in. I mean, yeah, I have Bobby to help me from time to time but even he tells me to let it go because it's been six years.

He always says, that: "You need to get back to living your own life, and not just trying to find out what happened."

"You mean back to the boys," I always say back.

"No, I mean you need to let it come to you. Sometimes that's the best way to solve a case," he says back.

"Yeah I know." I always sigh. "You have been saying it for the past four years," I say.

I know he means well by what he says but I don't know if I'm ready to let it go yet, even if it has been six years. I think I keep searching hoping to find my dad alive and not the thing that killed him, even though I don't know anything about what killed him or what he was hunting the night he was "killed." I wish I had the guts to call Dean and ask again but I feel like I'll get the answer I did back then.

Flashback

"You don't want to know," Dean would say.

"Yes I do, or I wouldn't be asking Dean," I would say back. I wish he would just tell me. I was hoping this time he would because it was going to be the last time I ask.

Again, he would say, "If I could tell you I would."

"What do you mean by that?" I ask, furrowing my eyebrows.

"Nothing," he dismisses.

End of flashback

That was the last conversation I had with him. The last words I spoke to him. That was all I needed to leave and I did.

God, I wish he would have told me. Maybe I would still be hunting on the road with him instead of on my own. Nothing would be better than that right now but I can't go back not until I find out or he calls and tells me himself.

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