A Few Words Matter

Defiance

It burns inside,
Listening to what you said.
I think an angel just died.
Carefully, around you, I must tread.

I stand still,
Hands clenched,
Into my heart you attempt to drill,
I wonder...how long ago could I have bent?

Mouth shut tightly,
Eyes fixed on yours,
I feel the fear just slightly
In me, there are so many locked doors.

You will never know
How mentally challenging you are
As I struggle to go with the flow,
You and I, are oh so far.

I do not wish to be close,
For I despise you.
It is not you, I chose
Let me say, I never wanted to.

I will keep fighting
I will never succumb,
A light, my defiance keeps lighting...
But of course, one day I'll be numb

"I love you" you say...
Don't make me spit
I have felt and seen you betray.
Is there any place where i may sit?

You stab me again and again
Why must I stay silent?
Oh yes, my opinion is looked upon with disdain
My hate for you, really is quite violent

The one thing that makes me smile,
Why did you take it?
In my shoes, should someone walk a mile,
The first obstacle will be hit.

The dark scares me,
Yet I feel comfortable,
How much more will I have to see?
You are becoming less and less tolerable.

I would yell and scream
I would point fingers at you
My own world, it is just a dream
When I voice my hate, you ask, "who?"

"Who?" You say?
I'll make you see
Into the night, I shall turn your day,
I'll make it so, that you can't flee

Feel my hate...
Hear my pain...
"Lets clean this slate,"
Have you gone insane?

I will reject everything
I will never tell you
Try anything,
Then I'll tell you "who"

"LEAVE ME ALONE" I'd scream,
But no, its not permitted
So happy, I must seem,
One day, I won't be sighted...

Not here,
You'll never find me...
Not there,
I'll be free

So go ahead,
Try to understand me...
You'll hit a dead end.
So sorry...that you couldn't see,
What- YOU - tried to befriend