to the voice in my head

I've know you since the day i was born. you have always been with me, when i was happy, when i was sad, when i was angry, when i was quiet. you saw every part of me, the good and the bad ones. you saw me fall in love, have fun with my friends, eat ice cream with my dad, go shopping with my mom, you saw me crying in the shower, you saw me going to college, you saw my whole life. So why do i feel i don't know you at all? Why do you only talk about what you want? Why do you make me fell like shit? I was not supposed to listen to you. You are in my head, i created you, but why i can't forget you? 

The voice is getting louder, it feels like someone is screaming inside of my head and i cant get it out. Is is because i am weak? Or is it because in the end i agree with everything it is saying? How could i not agree with i was the one that created it. I've always told myself that you are another person that luves inside of me, that's why we don't agree, but the truth is that i didn't want to feel more guilty for every thought i had. 

I am afraid of you, i am afraid of your thoughts, i am afraid that onde day i will listen to you, i am more afraid because i realized that in the end your voice is my voice.