DEAR: because of.

Dear crush...

When we met...

I remember it like yesterday. The chatter of other students...the winds breeze lightly touching my skin. That was the day this strange feeling had manifested in me. The feeling of a thousand butterfly's swirling in my stomach every time I see you, the continues thought of you and that stupid smile of yours, and worst is you suddenly appaering every where I go, even in my dreams I can't seem to get away from you.

"Is this a crush?"... "Am I crushing?"... "Why?"...Not again...I can't go through this again. The feeling of loosing someone...

After loosing my friends and going through so many heart brakes, I decided "no more...no longer shall I allow myself to be broken over and over again...no longer shall I have hope for relationships that are most probably gonna end up with me being left with a broken heart and loneliness.

After a few days I pulled myself together. Avoiding you has gotten so much easier...until she came along my new best friend. To be honest I didn't really plan on becoming besties, but here we are seven months later...she really is one of the best friend I ever had.

It's almost been tree months of avoiding you but after a while of hanging out with best friend I noticed that she was very close to you...I felt this little bit of jealousy with in me. Then came my first question caused by jealousy "How do you know him?"

(Months later)
Now I'm by her side waiting to be invited in to class. From the second floor hanging down... looking at the beautiful purple blossoms on the three...the fresh air fulling my lungs.
As I looked down there you where stearing with that stupid smile on your face. As I made eye contact I felt my skin burning up and I'm left with nothing to do but look away.

We meat again...