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No one, just Y/n

But my efforts in vain, they can't relate

Everyone says they know how it feels or that they can relate when they can't. They say it to try and reverse the conversation, trying to make it about themselves.

To how I've drawn out in Sharpie where I'd take the scissors

The only way I cope with my depression is self-harm. I have a small container hidden under my bed with a first aid kit, blades and scissors. I use the scissors to see where it hurts most and go over it with a blade.

If that's what it took for me to look in the mirror

After I cut, I look in the mirror to see what I have done to myself. I want to stop but I know I deserve the pain. I make everyone's life a living hell, I always bother them, I'm always annoying them. I deserve it, so I don't stop

Oh, I've done every diet to make me look thinner

I have tried being vegetarian, being vegan, eating 1 meal a day, only eating a healthy snack and none have helped me lose weight. I even tried starving myself and that didn't work either.

So why do I still feel so goddamn inferior?

I still feel like I'm below everyone else. I feel like everyone else is above me, like I am the only one on this bottom level.

Can't be too loud, can't be too busy

Another day, more getting told to shut up or quiet down when I talk. I told my friends that I have plans already so I can't hang out with them, once again they make me the bad guy and guilt trip me into hanging out with them anyways.

If I don't answer now, are they still going to need me?

I was helping my mom and my phone was in my room. When I got back upstairs, I checked my notifications and see 2 texts and a missed call from one of my friends. The first one was asking if she could call me, then the missed call, then she said that she talked to someone else and thanked me for the help.

Can't be too proud, can't think I'm pretty

I got an A+ on my test, I was proud of myself, truly smiling my friends ask what I got, I tell them I got an A+, and they tell me I don't need to flaunt it off. I'm wearing jean shorts and a cropped t-shirt because today was one of the rare days I was confident enough to show my legs. I got called a slut, again.

Do they keep me around, so their flaws just seem silly?

I was studying with my friends, and they were all on their phones. I looked at one of their phones and saw they were texting to another a group chat with our friend group, but I wasn't in it. The text said, "When Y/n is around, I don't think of my flaws anymore, only hers." They all agreed with her.

Life of the fat, funny, friend
Life of the fat, funny, friend

All I am, is the fat funny friend. I'm the one that looks like they weigh the most and I'm the one that is relied on to make jokes to cheer people up.

It's funny when I think a guy likes me

I thought this guy liked me, we became friends, and it turns out he used me to get with one of my other friends

And it's funny when I'm the one who says, "Let's go to eat"

When I hang out with my friends, I'm the one that suggests we get something to eat. They all say they aren't hungry then like 5-10 minutes later, they want to eat.

It's funny when I'm asked to go out on Halloween
Dresses, and thigh-highs, while I hide my body

My friends go as sexy cops, sexy devils, sexy angels, anything to show off their body. Meanwhile I'm in an inflatable dinosaur, it comes off as a funny costume, but it is the best way to hide my body without anyone suspecting anything.