Torn in between the two

Part 2

The next day I woke up feeling rejuvenated. Today I had three classes  from 10-12. I look at the time it was after 8. I couldn't go back to sleep. So I got up showered and clean my dorm room. My roommate must have had awsome night lastnight because she didn't come home ;) Even though I was feeling like I was on top of the world. A part of me wanted to do something I know I shouldn't. I wanted to reply back to q. I keep thinking about him now and if I don't reply soon I'm going to be distracted in class. I really don't want that. I know your probaly like she needs to stop with that lame excuse. I went downstairs to the kitchen and made some cereal. I took out phone and log in to fb. I click on his mesage. I reread  it about 10x

I started to write.........

I'm glad you miss me! I don't know if you deserve me and I still have  love for you. But right now I need time to myself. Our relationship 

isn't healthy like we were meant to fall inlove but not be together :/  I love spending time with you but right nowis not the time for us to try and work on things. It's almost time for me to be settling down and get married. Your not ready for that and you need to find someone else that will make you happy.

Should I send it?! I don't know I don't want him to get upset but 

thats how I feel and if he loves me he should understand. I sent the  mesage and went back upstairs. I was about to get dress when saw  my roomate do her walk of shame.

"Looks like someone had a fun night"

"I was hoping you would be gone" she said while taking her clothes off 

"Gone? Really at 9? you know my classes start at 10"

"Ooh wow, what was I thinkin" she retorted while looking at the clock.

"So sam, wassup?!"

"Shouldn't I be asking you that?"

"Well Q mesg me on fb"

She drop her clothes on the floor "Get out!"

"seriously" she started grabbing her clothes from the ground and 

laying them out on the bed "Did you reply, I hope you didn't" I turned  around, I couldn't bare to look at her worried face. She knows about everything I been through with him. "I did I couldn't help myself, after rereading the mesg over and over I kept thinking about him, I still love him and I don't know why" my eyes started to get watery. Lee walk over and gave me tissue and a big hug. God I love her, I'm so glad I met her my freshmen year of college. We've been close ever since.

I look at the time 9:40, "well Lee I gotta get to class I'll see you 

soon. By the way “my date” with Dan AWSOME! I'll text you details or maybe I'll just leave you curious"

"your wicked, do you know that" I laughed "love you more muah"

mmmm speaking of Dan he just texted me

Goodmorning Sam! hope you have a wonderful day :) -Dan

Is he trying to make me fall for him? Guys are so predictable

awe Goodmorning to you too hun, hope all is well for you too :)

-Sam

two can play that game! I was early for class which means I get to sit in the front. Which means I focus better. people started coming in and then our professor finally  came in. She open her laptop and started to show us pictures of kids  who look depressed and lost. I couldn't even focus on the lesson because of q. Imagine me getting back with him? I wouldn't be able to focus in any class. I jumped from the vibration in my pocket. I took out my phone and q must have known I was thinking about him because he replied back to my mesg on fb. I was nervous to see what he had to say.