I remember the details very clearly, I remember the feelings, it's as if this memory and this moment in our history is covered in a soft pink. It sparkles like the morning sun over the lake, it reminds me of our everlasting love. Our eternity.
I walked up those stairs clueless as to how that moment would become so important to me even years after it happened. I looked at the window and saw you and Ille standing there, you were waiting for me and I saw you ran off at seeing me.
I was curious and disappointed because I wanted to talk to you before class. Ille directed me to my locker, they left me alone which is weird since they usually wait for me to get my things and we go to class together.
Then I opened my locker and there it was.
A red little box with a pretty yellow bow on top. I knew what it was but I couldn't believe it.
I loved music boxes my whole life, I collected them, I adored them, you knew that.
I opened it and saw the heart shaped music box, it's polished wood and intricate swirls standing out to me. I took it out carefully, my head stuck in my locker in amazement and I played it.
I listened to it. I almost cried. I held back my tears as I listened to it play a sweet tune.
You showed me this music box, you said you got it and how much you liked it. I loved it too it was so adorable.
And you gave it to me? Did you buy it for me? Or did you just see how much I love it and gave it to me?
I couldn't believe it. My heart was soaring and my entire body was weak. I wanted to cry in joy.
I was so happy you gave me that music box. I was so happy someone finally noticed me, noticed me enough to give me such a meaningful gift.
That gift has so much meaning to me, even after we had fights I'd tuck it away somewhere safe so I wouldn't destroy it in heartbreak. I'm glad I did.
After you gave me that music box I played it every night before bed and kissed it on the top as a goodnight kiss to you. I'd listen to it in times where I was needing you but you were gone.
It was the physical being of just how much I adore you.
I don't know if you know how meaningful that was to me. It means so much that you gave me that music box. A gift for me? A music box, something I love and you knew that.
It isn't extravagant like a diamond ring, it isn't the worlds shiniest car. It's a simple heart shaped music box and I'd chose this over any other item in the world.
Just know when you read this you gave me hope that day, hope I'm truly capable to be loved and to love. You restarted my life that day.
I know I wouldn't be where I am now as a person if it weren't for you. I'm so grateful to you. I'd give every prayer to you, I'd collect stars for you. If you wanted the moon I'd grab it from the sky for you.
I hope one day you value yourself as much as I value you. You deserve all the love in the world, you deserve the worlds finest moments and enjoyments and I promise I'll make this hard life we fought worth it.
I promise you happiness.
I promise us happiness.
I love you so much.
