Algophobia // Technoblade X Reader

This will not be finished.

Due to recent events, I will be discontinuing all of my Technoblade x readers. It feels gross to continue to write them, knowing that he passed away. Thank you to everyone for being such great readers though. I enjoyed reading and interacting with everyone in the comment section! I never expected Thantophobia to get as popular as it did, but thank you.

I went through my notes app and found some stuff for what I had planned for this and I felt like sharing. I hope to see you all when I finally move on to something new. <3

Techno pov.

Obsession. That's what Phil would call this, this aching that I can't seem to get rid of. It hasn't been that long, so I think it's reasonable. Why should I have to skip over the mourning process? What's so wrong with wanting her back, wanting to hold her in my arms, and tell her just how much I love her. According to Phil, all of it is.
Phil doesn't approve of the measures I've been taking. He says I'm exhausting myself and him.
The flower. That's what I need.
I don't remember why did it, but I dug up around Y/N's grave, carving the ground around to find that specific flower. Her flower. I needed that flower. I needed her flower.

When he finally gets her revived:
Oh god, what have I just done? All I can hear is her screaming, everything else is silent besides for her agony. I'm watching as her body peices itself back together, it's a horrible sight. Eventually, she stops screaming. She just lays still, staring up at the moon and stars, tears running down her face. What have I done? What have I sacrificed? It doesn't matter. She's back, she's really back.

I knelt down next to her as my hands reached out to touch her. As my finger tips made contact with her skin she flinched and attempted to pull away, her weak body not being able to turn me away. I could feel regret filling up in my body. Was this okay? I pulled my hands away from her, not wanting to scare her. She's back. I couldn't find my voice at first, but slowly I began to speak to her, keeping my voice low. She stayed silent. She wouldn't speak to me and she only stared at the sky. I gave up on talking after a while and layed down on the ground next to her, closing my eyes. I'll try again in the morning.