Thousands of moments

School

I hear the alarm on my phone go off. I turn around and rub my hands all over the bed in an attempt to locate my phone. I roll over and find it on the floor still buzzing. Everyone in my house is still sleeping and Jesus the last thing I want to do is wake them up. I'm not a morning person in fact I'm far from it. I mean you have zero reasons to be talking to me In the ass crack of dawn. I contemplate going back to bed and just cutting school today but I don't feel like lying and making up excuses for my parents. Besides I'll save it for another day. A much needed day.I hit stop on my phone and get out of bed. I avoid looking at the mirror and go straight to the bathroom and brush my teeth. I see some skin care stuff on the counter and debate weather I should use and actually put in effort for school today. I always use it for about a week and get too lazy to do any skin care for the next six months but thank god!my Ancestors at least had the common decency to give me clear skin. I mean I'm not exactly Gigi Hadid and the last thing I need on my plate is skin problems.

I Make it to first period just in time and find my seat. I don't have any friends in this class so I mostly go on my phone and pretend like I'm doing some homework so I don't seem lonely. The day passes by quickly and it's lunch time. I spot my freinds in line and go near them. I feel bad for cutting the line but not bad enough to go back.
What? They do it all the time and you don't hear me complaining plus American school lunch could pass for prison food. Today's menu is stale bread and six chicken nuggets if you can call it chicken. I'm hungry enough to eat it and suddenly regret skipping breakfast this morning. I make it to our table and. Sit next to Marianne. My freinds are all seniors. I'm the only junior so next year they'll leave and it'll be just me. I don't have the energy to make new friends nor do I feel like it so senior year is going to be spent alone not that I mind.

They discuss graduation day outfits and plans for college.
"Your coming to graduation Right nila" asks Marianne.
" oh come on I wouldn't miss it for the world" I respond.
She smiles that pretty smile of Hers. She's the most outgoing out all of us. She never stops smiling literally. Everyone knows her for her kindness and cheerful personality. And there's Aisha the opposite of Marianne. She's seems angry all the time and only every talks to us. She's nice once you get to know her but she has what most people would describe as a resting bitch face. Then there's Zaila the smart one. She got accepted to Harvard over a month ago and turned them down. She decided to stay near her family and go to a uni that's a couple of  hours away. She's nothing like me I would probably jump at the offer and leave this small Midwestern town. There's us. The four Amigas. I watch them talk about their plans for the future and it hits me that it's not going to be always like this. They're probably the closets freinds I have ever had.
"Are you good"? Zaila asks me concerned
"I'm going to be the only one left here next year you know we only have two more months together". I respond.
"well it's not like we're never going to see each other again" Aisha chimes in.
"True. But it's not going be the same"my voice low
" you know it's not the same as it was" Marianne
Sings out of nowhere. And we all Burst out in laughter.

"In this world it's just us"! We sing together and I can feel a couple of peope staring us but it's so loud in the cafeteria I don't think anyone cares we're singing and grinning like idiots. The bells rings. Lunch is over.  I have intro to health career next. It's right next to the cafeteria so I don't have a long walk ahead of me. I decide to take the long way to my class to see him. He passes by me in the hallway and I try to make eye contact but he's too busy chatting with his freinds. He walk right past me like I'm not even there. He's going to be leaving in two months and I'm still trying to Create a small insignificant moment between us. I make my way over to my next class and slide in my seat Quietly. I actually happen to like this teacher she's often student favorite. Don't worry she's not an ass kisser or anything she's just honest and calls out bullshit when she hears it. Like a while ago we were assigned this project about abortion rights. It was meant to be strictly facts and if you had any personal opinions about it you couldn't do it. Well This MAGA supporting conservative asshole decided to bring in his one sided ignorant opinion on it and called abortion murder. He said and I quote "Abortion is murder jesus wouldn't want this" Right! As if Jesus is his best buddy.
"Alright that's enough now. I have zero problems on you having personal opinions on this issue but you will not bring it into my classroom. No one gets abortion for fun Mr. kade. You have no idea what brings women to do this so please remain strictly on facts or sit down".
The class became dead quiet and the air felt tense. Yeah that's one of the many reasons why she' student favorite. Other teachers would probably let him continue with his BS but not Mrs Johnson. The bells rings and I sigh happily. I have study hall last. I would probably skip and head straight home but I don't know to drive and I'm not walking In this hijabi murdering heat. I mean you try wearing one during summer in Wisconsin! It feels like I'm being barbecued Alive. I go the library and the nice breeze of the air conditioner hits my face. It's so full and there's no where to sit. Just when I'm about to leave I spot a seat on this table near the corner. Akil is sitting there.
Wow.
For a girl who's had a crush on a guy for years you think I would know which periods we have together. I contemplate weather to sit on that table or not. Would it be weird? I mean probably.
He doesn't know me. But almost everyone In here is quiet so I'm guessing they don't know each other either. I make way to the table and sit across from him. He looks up from his phone and oh my he's more handsome upclose. I know god doesn't have favorites and all but damn look at this boy.
He's also good at basketball and does good in school from what I heard. If your this hot you should at least have the common decency to be a little dumb. I feel akward with him staring at me. Why is he still staring at me?? I try my best not to make eye contact but I have no choice as I feel his gaze on me.
"Is there something on my face" I ask
"No. You look Familiar is all". Um we've went to the same school since 6th grade I hope to god I'm more than " Familiar".
"Yeah well we go to school together so that shouldn't come as a shock." I reply nonchalantly
" yeah yeah good point" he smiles. Oh my god. He smiled at me!! Me! He smiled at little old me.
"Your Akil right? I ask knowing damn well I know where this man lives.  Okay. Let me explain myself. He's friends with my brother so sometimes he drops him off at his house. Don't worry I'm not an Grade A stalker.
"Yeah and your Nila?"
"You know my name?" I ask a bit taken back
"Yes. I'm freinds with your brother." Oh right of course. Geez I need to calm down.
"Oh yeah i forgot that" I reply awkwardly. He gets his backpack and Is about to leave. Shit? What did I do? "Um My ride is here I gotta go, see you around Nila". He says smiling. Oh. Shit I mean I got talk to him I can't complain.
"Sure see you Around" I respond a bit too eagerly.