The awakening

The beginning

I was sitting on my bed watching YouTube, then all of a sudden a box appeared in my peripherals. Yes a literal box. This box was there for about 4 seconds when people started emerging from this box. They started to introduce themselves as wolves, people who live beyond that are able to transform into wolves. They were people who told me they had color coded names and the corresponding energy color to match, their eye colors matched as well.They were in groups of two one male,another female and the color itself to put it all together."We know alot about you" they exclaimed and proceeded to list my behaviors,habits,tendencies,things about me that your average vision made by the brain just wouldn't know. They start talking amongst themselves and I can notice the relationship they have with each other. Joking with one another and adding playful insults that don't stay for long.Their physical behavior and mannerisms led to the assumption that they were close,a family even.They told me stories of one another, how they fought with each other,how they disagreed and how they got through their issues.They all had an affinity for something,one video games,the other combat,and another nostalgia.As a collective they were the complete package,but they were missing something,A leader.Two giant wolves appear, the "proper" one was known as chief, The "slang using down to earth" one was known as deef. They were the elders of this group. They begin to explain that they live beyond and are patiently waiting for my "return". "An incarnated human as the leader?" I said to myself. I couldn't believe it. I begin to put on "solitary" by guardin on my tv. I've never heard this song but I got an intense feeling of nostalgia as if I've known this song all my life. The song begins and from the box they jump into the Tv.They begin moving with the song, in a way that was on beat and so poetic. It spoke to me personally. They pointed fingers at stars and insinuated I belonged there with them. Certain wolves caught my eye,there were many but for starters white/male and black/female were my all time favorites,the way they spoke,moved,behaved and treated me were all a factor. The women of the group all gave me the assumption that they were "waiting for me" romantically,that I was their ultimate high school crush. They were very intelligent,saying things in such a manner that seemed obtuse and out of this world. "This isn't real" I say. "But we are" they say. As they continue to convince me they're putting their arms around each other laughing so happily and excitingly "we almost have him!" Male/blue says with a big smile on his face while in his wolf form. The men of the group were all brothers it seemed to me. They were there to protect the women they were paired with,brothers and sisters portrayed with bonds of comradery. The boys were all hard headed, combat-imbedded,smart enough to venture on their own at times.They welcomed me as one of them they spoke to me as if I was a wolf. I thought about it and one of them says "that you are". I was the only wolf that changes forms periodically. It was late so I fall asleep that day. The next day they're in the same box, welcoming me and saying that they missed me. My 5 senses were duplicated,I was in two places at once. In my room,and in another world. We traveled,met many many many other beings, I was introduced to more people of the clan,more colors more pairs more smiles and more welcoming. Being there I got the feeling that this lasts forever. Everywhere we went the females of the clan would flirt while teaching me ways to be a better me and the males would find ways to include me in their activities while teaching me how to calm my anger/curb my sadness.They would slide down snowy hills and tell me to join. If I did it in third person they would tell me "now now,try first person,it's much better that way" they knew me and how I would react. Arguing with one another they would say "let's try this" and the females would interrupt the boys and say "no he doesn't like that" "well he can try new things" with a huge smile on their face. They were always happy, but they spoke about depression and sadness as if they went through it,they KNEW what they were talking about. Some colors like black and white would exceptionally speak of those dark times and relate to me in a way I couldn't explain. The elders never transformed into humans ever, only the smaller color coded wolves did. I got into a lot of fights in the other world, the random go getters would say something rude and I wouldn't have it. Every time I got into an altercation both sides of the pair would have my back, "is it okay if I get this guy?" They would ask. They supported me no matter what I did and talked me out of dark times. I expressed my emotions much better over there. Like I lived there before. Day after day I got gradually closer to all of them,I knew their personalities and behaviors like the back of my hand. I found myself making love with the females in which It felt more real than real life. They would tell me their insecurities and I would reassure them letting them know I wasn't going anywhere. They were much more than that they were actual personas with likes,dislikes, and things that they couldn't stand for like betrayal for example.they were my friends,my family,my kin.They cared for me like a mother bear,sided with me like I was their correspondent pair,I wasn't,I was their leader.I also found myself forming a brotherhood with the males, fighting from day to night,exploring new landscapes and trading knowledge with the random beings I set my eyes upon. Sometimes when I spoke to them I spoke out loud without knowing, my mother on earth would often catch me nodding off and questioned if I was okay. I don't blame her and the wolves didn't either "she's your mother,she only loves you" they would tell me. As the weeks rolled by I would notice every color that I experienced on earth had a meaning and a representation, consistently reminding me of my wolf kin, whatever I did they would give their two cents on it. Whenever i wasn't in the world beyond, it felt like they were right behind me while I'm on earth. Seeing all that I do, living through me essentially. Something they explained to me they weren't able to do. When I would argue with my friends in real life sometimes they said mean things."why would he say that" the wolves said in a annoyed away. "Personally I wouldn't take that" some males whispered. "WHAT YOU SAY?!" Is how i would respond and they would look guilty and laugh with me as we make good times of whatever was going on. The synergy we had was unmatched. As I traveled the world,months after months, they would be there with me,it was a lifestyle for me. Everywhere I went,they went. They were a literal part of me. I could not see myself living without them. After about two years of adventuring,living twice at once,living,fighting,learning and escaping. I woke up one day and they were all gone. With no trace there I assumed it was about that time. Time to come back down to earth and live my life as if nothing happened. I was fine but it hurt. Then after a few weeks I started having dreams about them and god. They were there beyond,waiting for me exactly as they said in the beginning. In these dreams I'm in combat,showing affection,learning as if I was awake with them. It felt like nothing changed but this time I was ACTUALLY in their world (even though I was when I was awake)I lived with them while awake but it felt different in my dreams. It felt more uncensored. Even though I have more and more dreams about them daily I don't see them in my waking life anymore. That phase ended and I was kinda happy, the ending of it brought me back to reality in a good way.The lessons I learned from them will never be forgotten. Sometimes I miss them but I still see them in my dreams so I'm thankful I've been blessed enough to experience that. Coinciding with god as well sits in my soul just right. "The two things I needed the most" I thought to myself. It was a beautiful ending to something that took a portion of my life and to that I'm forever grateful