This Is The Primetime (Sequel To "Try Not To Fall For The Blue Haired Douche")

Chapter 13

After heaven knows how long of a silent room and the slow beeps on the heart monitor, I cried. Once I calmed down, I took a breath. 

"I can be tough, I can be strong

 But with you, it's not like that at all

 There's a girl, who gives a shit

Behind this wall, you just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said, 

You left them running through my head

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it just went with it

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here," I sang quietly, playing with his fingers. 

His heart monitor slowed slightly, and I sat up and looked at him. His face. He saved me. I got out of that car crash with only a hurt arm because he pulled me out of the way. He got hurt because of me.

I choked up again, and tears started falling from my eyes and splashing on Josh's hospital gown. 

"Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you  

Here, here, here 

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you

Near, near, near

I wish you were here

I love, the way you are

It's who I am, don't have to try hard 

We always say, say like it is 

And the truth, is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said,

You left them running through my head 

You're always there, you're everywhere 

But right now I wish you were here. 

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it just went with it 

You're always there, you're everywhere 

But right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you  

Here, here, here 

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you

Near, near, near

I wish you were here"  

His heart slowed again. I was terrified. I squeezed his hand. I wanted him to wake up. 

"No, I don't wanna let go

I just wanna let you know 

That I never wanna let go

Let go, oh, oh

 No, I don't wanna let go

I just wanna let you know

That I never wanna let go

Let go, let go, let go...

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you  

Here, here, here 

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you

Near, near, near

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you  

Here, here, here 

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you

Near, near, near

I wish you were here."

Then his heart stopped. I screamed, and started crying. Nurses ran in, and tried to take me away from him as they were trying to revive him. 

Then the panic just stopped, and the room went quiet. Tears streamed down my face, and suddenly all the pain from the car crash set in. 

I screamed and wailed, and cried. Someone helped me over to the bed. I don't know who, but then I was standing over him. His face looked relaxed, and at peace. 

"No, no, no!" I cried. 

I collapsed on him, and buried my face between his next and the pillow. I squeezed his hand, and that caused me to cry even more, from the sheer pain. 

"You promised you wouldn't leave me..." I whispered.

Matt's P.O.V.

They had given me, Mike, and Ian Josh's clothes. They told us if we wanted we could look through his pockets our something, to see if he had anything important. 

I fiddled with his jacket, and looked in one pocket. Nothing. Then I looked in his other pocket, and felt something. 

I pulled it out, and got wide eyed. It was a ring. It looked like one of the guitar strings from Josh's favorite guitar (don't ask why they look different from the other strings) with a treble clef with a little light baby blue jewel. I realized Josh had been making this. I saw him. 

"He... was... going... to propose." I said, Mike and Ian looked up. They both got wide-eyed too. 

A nurse came in. "Boys... I'm afraid I have some bad news." she said. 

"No.." I said quietly. 

"Joshua has passed away."