DESTINY

CHAPTER 18

                    KIM
We stayed in a tight embrace basking in the glory of our mate bond then my stomach decided to spoil the fun by rumbling like thunder AGAIN! Eric push me back by my shoulders slowly smirking at me " let's go feed those pythons." I feel embarrassed but I was almost beginning to get used to the feeling around him and it seems it'll be happening more often.

He quickly grab his trousers from the floor and put his legs through the holes as I try my best to avert my eyes but  I couldn't resist to check him out when he was done securing the button, I guess it is as a safe zone again. "Take a picture it'll last longer" he say and I roll my eyes. Within a nano second he was infront of me with eyes several shades darker "if you know what's good for you, never roll your eyes at me again." He said in that husky voice that tempted me to want to do just that again but I thought better, I need to feed my tummy before finding out the real strength behind his threat. I nod smiling as I step back "Good. And you say you are are poor in decision making" he say under his breath but I still caught it, his eyes were back to normal. I will definitely do it again, I thought with excitement.

He put on his t-shirt in record time then he was directing me towards the car, he open my door and I slide in then he loop to the drivers side. I'll miss this lake, I hope to come again soon. It was already dark, probably around 8.30 pm and I just want to reach the pack and have that talk. As if reading my mind Eric said " they must be waiting." He lean over the console to kiss my cheek before turning on the ignition as I was fighting the butterflies that suddenly erupt in my stomach. Who knew Eric King is so affectionate. As we rode back in a not so awkward silence, my mind start to wander, he was putting his hand on my leg every now and then and I was not complaining because I shamelessly miss his touch everytime he removes it.

I have a mate, a real werewolf mate. And I couldn't ask for more, with that body, voice and charisma I could melt into a puddle right now just thinking about him. Then the uncertainties start: I feel so small compared to him, I feel like I'm several levels down from where he is, maybe the mate bond is messing with his head right now and later when it settles in and he looks at me he will realize that the moon goddess doomed him by mating him to me forever. He is absolutely perfect in every aspect where as I am the absolute opposite. He must have so many friends whom are always composed and fun to be around, I am weird around people and always glare  to make them stop staring. I have the most boring pass times that I am sure no one will want to spend 10 minutes in my company, who would want to watch fictional characters ( I guess not so fictional anymore) and read the same fictional books, where did I go wrong that I end up so bland and boring? My mom even have more fun than me.

"Baby.. are you okay? You seem off.." Eric said effectively bring me back from my self-loath, I look out of the window to know where we are and see the gates being opened. The guys guys manning it bow showing respect to their Alpha as we  pass, I look over to find Eric driving as he waits for my reply.

"I'm sorry for spoiling the moment but I still feel like you will wake up tomorrow and realize I'm not the person you want in your life" he was about to say something but I quickly continue " no listen to me Eric, I'd rather you end things now than drag it on only to leave me later, I've been wearing a steel vest around my heart to protect it from heart breaking situations but for you I am willing to wear it on my sleeves and hope for the best. But when I think deeper about you and me, it seems to be impossible, I've been hearing rumors about your playboy ways and how you sleep around and I don't want to dive into that life, yes I like you a lot; maybe even love but how can I stay happy hearing your past ways and how ever girl at school practically undresses you with their mouths?" I finish my rant to find the car parked on the shoulder of the road and Eric's maximum attention on me.

He removes his safety belt then lean forward to take my hands that were on my lap " Sugar, you need to know that the moon goddess has never been wrong, and if she is this time round I am the one who is not worthy of you. This body, how I address people and how I live, all of it can me made and learnt  and anybody can do it, it's no big deal really. But the good heart you have is something I don't have, and not just anybody can have overnight, it's something that's natured inside ones soul. Yes I love my pack and can defend it with everything I have but you don't want to know how black my soul becomes when there's an attack or a traitor or any negative thing that comes against my packs happiness and peace. I become so brutal and I am not sure you will stand by that, Im afraid you will be the one to leave me the second you see me at my worst and I can't bear that. You think that you are bearing your heart to me? Well I am bearing my soul to you Sugar, you are the only woman who has the ability to make or destroy me because I have never had any woman this close to me before. The rumors are totally false, it got too much to this extent because I never said anything to correct it, it started as a grapevine around the pack then it went to school then it is everywhere. I let everyone think what they want because I myself know that Jake will  eat me inside out the moment I even think of touching a woman who isn't our mate. He has been telling me that he felt your amazing presence long ago and we should wait. He always talk I riddles so I don't really understand him but I've been waiting for you all these 19 years and I'm not planning on leaving you for anything or anyone."