when i first saw him i was starstruck! nah i'm playing it was actually a seating chart. at first i didn't like him at all. like he actually made me so fucking mad. he would always ask me for answers (shocker) cause why idk. but idk over time i just started being less angry and more charmed. like wtf who let this white ass looking boy charm me like huh. but it was true. everyday when i was with him i became more and more happy. like i had wanted my friends back for so long and i wanted my at the time crush to be with me so bad i hadn't realized i rlly liked him. he honestly made my life so much better and i don't regret saying that cause i love him. i love him. i never rlly like said that. scared. i love him and everything about him . i love his eyes his hair his humor his laugh his personality. he's so annoyingly cute i cant not be happy when he's around. i think about him all the time. i think of him when i think of basketball i think of him when i dream i think of him when im sad i think of him when i don't think im good enough for him cause im not. he's out of my league i just want him to love me for me. this is so cringe but omg i cant tell him he means to much to me i cant lose him. he is my happiness he is my pride he is the reason i try to be better and calmer and overall happy. he inspires me to be able to keep going a be strong. i want him. i want him to only think of me when he does stuff. i want him to look at me when i walk in the room. i want him to want me as much as i want him. but most of all. i want him to find someone or something that genuinely makes him feel the way i feel towards him. i would give all my advice to him and tell him to be with someone else even if it crushed me completely. that's was love is. unconditionally difficult but it's all worth it just to be with them. he's my ray of sunlight. he's my world and i love him for everything.
