TW- depression, mention of suicide, self-harm
I'm not a monster-
I'm a child inside pen,
As world grows up.
I'm not a monster-
I'm fog in your mind,
Lips that won't smile,
Sea of your eyes.
I'm not a monster,
I'm excuse you make for running away,
Every mask worn, every pretend on,
And mirror you turn your back to.
I'm not a monster,
I'm Ganga in mutiny,
Choked on garbage
To drown humans out
One last time.
I'm not a monster,
I'm fingerprints slapped on soul,
Blended photo of perfect-
Before and after.
I'm not a monster,
I'm preparation for the worst,
One percent battery of your phone,
And so is your will to live,
Suicide is no longer an answer to question,
Suicide is exit route you can turn to.
I'm not a monster,
I'm lines carved on your skin,
And every choked no,
Bated breath and wide eyes,
Waiting for other shoe to drop.
I'm not a monster,
I'm a missed call,
Yet screaming for those
To whom you don't matter anymore.
I'm not a monster,
I'm a doormat of cobwebs and dust,
I'm nights hard to bear alone,
And loopholes in faith,
I'm a beast for slaughter,
And a beast to slaughter.
I'm not a monster
'cause how many monsters does it take
For you to finally realise everyone is a monster?
I'm not a monster,
But walls that bear witness to a life
You couldn't call home.
I'm not a monster,
I'll write stories of nightmares and hopes,
But will you escape unscathed
When it'll rain apocalypse?
