Her | Mikey X Reader

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"can we not fight anymore please? Can we not fight anymore?" I really try my best to convince her but still got no replies. I at least must receive a reply from you. " Y/N sure you're scared. I have been there. I can set you free."my concern for her condition was growing. I have no choice but to persuade and threaten her even more. " Y/N.. don't make me come in there-"

"fuck it!" I started kicking the door until I could hear a dull thud noise so I land my second kick that make a hole on the door. I keep kicking the door until I could fit in to enter the room.

It was dark. I thought maybe she didn't get to turn on the lights because she was too sacred. I switched on the lights and see my Y/N's lower body is covered with blood. She was unconscious and lost a lot of blood. I have been trembling yet speechlessly. I lost my unborn child because of me and I regret it every second. The dream of building a happy family with the love of my life has shattered into pieces. I even hired guards to protect them from dangers but not from me.

The next day we held a funeral for our unborn son, Seishiro Sano. Y/N and i have chosen the name wy earlier right after we knew that we would be a parents. Seishiro, 征 (sei) means "conqueror."　志 (shi) means "aspire." 朗 (rou) means "cheerfulness."Those who know about the baby's existent attend the funeral which are the Akashi's sibling, the maids, guards and us.

I promise I'll pay a visit whenever I can.

I thought while looking at the cemetery, and I'm certain Y/N thinks the same. At this point no matter how hurt I am losing the baby, she hurts even more since she's carrying the baby for months, she even has to face the her miserable child's father, me. The realization hits me hard.

I plead to her again asking forgiveness. "I'm sorry. I was- it was all my fault. Our child-". She keeps ignoring me by not replying to me and face the opposite as a sign of in denial to talk. i know I'm wrong, but she needs me the most, or maybe that's what I thought. "Y/N. Go home first." she doesn't reply to me. She just followed the driver to our car.

I walked to Takeomi who isn't too far behind me. Takeomi and Sanzu bowed to me when I reached them. "Takeomi, what else can I do to make up with her?" I asked. They raised their head and Takeomi started answering me, "I am deeply sorry for your loss, Mikey. For now, she might not be in a good condition and mind. You better be always by her side, keeping her company." I just dropped my head thinking what I am going to do. " actually, Mikey I have report due to our a new gang-" I cut Takeomi words because I need to prioritize my Y/N first. "tell me in detail about that tomorrow. Do what you can do for the time being. Drive me home now."

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I entered my house and went straight up to room to find Y/N. I was stunned when I see a maid helping Y/N folding her clothes and put it in a bag. The clothes she puts in are all clothes that she owned before she moved here and there is not much. She zipped the bag and lifts it up not noticing that I'm standing at the door. She was shocked that I'm home early than she has expected. if only I went home late again, I might really lose her since I loose the security.

"Y/N. What are you doing?" I asked while walking toward her. She faced the floor not making eye contact with me. I glared at the maid ordering her to leave us, and she left."Y/N. S top doing this!" I take the bag that she just lifted up on her arm. She just let it be. She hasn't eaten since the operation thus she doesn't has energy to fight me back. I hug her and whispered, " Y/N please just don't go. Don't leave me. We were meant to be together, and I won't let you live with any shitty guy."

"I've had enough Mikey." the first word she said to me after ghosting me and the line hurts me the most. I fell and kneel in front of her with my arm still hugging her.

"you're annoying. I don't have feelings for you anymore."my eyes widened. I can't believe she'll say words that will definitely hurt me. The same word I tell her way back before.

"please don't say that. If- if it's about our dead baby, we can make another one or more than one. I can give you a baby. Our baby or adopted doesn't matter. I just want you please," I'm bawling my eyes out. I can't look her in her eyes. The guilty about how I treat her when I'm not myself overwhelmed me.

" That's a bit ironic, isn't it? The boss of the most dangerous criminal organization kneels in front of a useless and worthless woman like me." I shake my head with tears flow down my cheeks." d-don't say that. I don't care if I'm being pathetic to you. I'm begging just this time i really am promise not to harm you anymore and i'll change for you." I said with quavering voice. Y/N just stays quite. I probably have wet her pants with my tears.

"please", I release my arm that hugging her just now and bow my head on the floor to her.

"I'm tired Mikey." her knees is trembling and she fell down. The tears which were on her face broke down into a slithering stream.

I take her hand and bring closer to my lips to kiss then pat and rub with my fingers. "Just- please Y/N. Give me the last chance. I promise I'll keep it."

"this time, I'll kill you if you broke your promise again." she said while looking in my eyes.

"yes. Do anything you want to me. As long as you stay by my side. At this moment, I only live for you."i hug her and patting her trembling shoulder to let her know that I'll always here for her.

"moron. You do know I won't kill you" she powerlessly hits my chest with her hand.

"yes, a moron like me thinks that losing you is already a death."