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I'm so darn tired
Sometimes I'm inspired
But everytime i have fire its extinguished by desire.

Desire to be part of something better
And freeing
Every opportunity is just a differant cage to be in

Your dreams, to obscene to be seen by these people
No one can be trusted,
Busted for being more productive

A world full of narcissism and if you don't fit in you better get out
If you look up to the stars and see them
You'll only start to doubt but be proud your allowed

How did I get here? So happy and free yet drowning in deciet
Seems to me that queens and kings can feel a cheat it stings.

I need to free verse to vent so enough of the rhyming

Sometimes its freeing to just write. Even if its to yourself. Even if its for people. Even if its pointless. Even if you droan on. Even if you don't want to. Even if they don't want you to. Even if.

Time goes too fast

I remember being young and having all these dreams
Then you realise millions of people have the same idea.

I'm still happy

Just a bit empty sometimes like im not doing enough. Like I should be doing more.

MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY

BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS BILLS

a constant repeat what is the point.

I dont want to make friends because friends hurt.

Every friend I've had seems to have hurt

So why bother

I let one person in and I'm pretty sure I wind her up.

Sometimes I get it.

I get why people cave

And give in

And become soulless

I won't let that happen i can see beauty between the lines

The smiles on my kids faces

The smile of my wife

The love I have for them is unbreakable thats been proved

My proudness

Truth is I don't need to be rich, I don't need the perfect career, I don't need multitudes of friends and horrible drama.

All I need is to know my little part of the world is okay.

That they are still dreaming

Its about them now

They are what really make me happy

I'd been missing the point all along

I had my dreams all along

They were right here all along.

But the world still crumbles, and people are still hurtful and everything I said still stands. Its just that I've shut it out. I don't care for it anymore. I care for my family.

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