Dear me || little poems

Dear me

Dear me,
I'm begging you.. please stop making me feel like a Desaster. The disappointment in me destroys me ... my life and everything else is gone just because of your feelings. I wish I could stop feeling like this.. emotionally dead and disgusted by myself. Everything you tried to fix is now more broken than before. You did that to me! You tried to kill me!!! And you were almost successful. But I'm stronger than you will ever be. But that's not the point. Why are we fighting?
So dear me... please let me be who I am and let us work together in harmony.
And dear me... let me be happy for just one time. I'm really begging you and I'm so sorry for everything I have done. So for the last time... dear me... please make it stop.