[abuser lover]

Finding (1/2)

It was a normal, boring day as always. Finding company sucks because of my looks. I should try online dating apps more.. ( You stand up of your bed and head to the bathroom. ) ( You look yourself in the mirror. )

Why.. Why did i ever try to use my power in that place.. I blinded myself in one eye and now i have burned half my skin off... Its horrible. Even touching myself on the burn marks hurts.. ( You stretch out your wings and head to the kitchen ) I should really start making grocery lists. I'm running out of food. Not like i eat much but i do need it to survive.. Do they not like me because im chubby..? That cant be it. I exercice every day.. ( You make yourself some PB&J ) Atleast this still gives me energy to do something. I'll go to the cafe for some coffee after this.. Breakfast. I'll probably not even find anyone anyway. Why do i even bother.. ( You eat your PB&J slowly )( You start tearing up a bit ) I dont understand.. Why does nobody want to be my significant other..? ( You dress up in your normal outfit : a sleevless red sweater, a sleevless black jacket, a gray belt and some long black pants. )( You stretch out your wings again )

( You head out of your appartment and take the elevator. )(It's pretty cold outside but the warmth of your blood keeps you warm enough. )(You walk along the sidewalk calmly. Besides some closed down stores, they look pretty nice.)(You stop infront of a cafe. It's logo says TheBreweri. ) Ah.. TheBreweri. My favorite place to grab myself some warm coffee. ( You walk inside of the cafe.)(The heat from the cafe blasts into your face. It feels pretty nice feeling the heat blasting unto your face again.)(You walk to the counter to order. ) 

C : " Hello sir! Welcome back. Would you want the same drink as before? "

L : " Oh! Uh.. I actually want to try the winter special. "
C : " That's fine with me! I know you'll love it! "
L : " Really? I'm double exicted now. "
C : " I'm glad to hear that. " ( The cashier turns to the baristas and says my order. ) Shes pretty nice to me. Though i see her more like a friend. Though her christmas uniform looks pretty cute on her..! C : " Go take a seat, it'll be done in a blink of an eye! "
L : " Ofcourse. "
(You go to the furthest table in the back. Theres no one coming to meet up with you anyway, and you dont want anyone seeing you alone.)
C : " Here you go, Lava!" (She giggles as she gives you the cup of hot cocoa.)
L : " Thanks. "
( You inspect the hot cocoa. )(It was hot cocoa with some mini marshmellows and a long-ish cinnamon stick. The mug had a little snowman on it and some christmas stuff.)( The cocoa smells and looks delicious! You cant wait to taste it. )( You take a sip..) Oh.. My.. God! Its so delicious! I should get this more instead of coffee!

Its 7:30 already. Damn. I really just slept that much after that cocoa? I should get started on that online thing. (You grab your phone and download a dating app. You set up your profile and after that, you go watch some YouTube. )