Allejo Series 1 | Forsaken Memories

CHAPTER FIVE

Nag init ang sulok ng aking mata, I couldn't help but to stare at him. His smile was genuine but I saw something else in it. Sadness.

And for a brief moment, a mask was removed from his face, and I am able to see a a silver of his soul— full of  longing and pain .

And that day, I made the decisions I wasn't sure if I will regret it.

I threw the flowers and ran as far as I could. I didn't bother to look back. I just run away.

Bumuhos na ang aking mga luha habang tumatakbo. Wala na akong ibang maisip na puntahan kundi ang puntod ni mama.

"Mama," I sobbed.

"Did I fail you? " my voice cracked.

"Mama, tama naman ang ginawa ko diba? " hinaplos ko ang lapida niya.

Naka upo ako sa lupa habang umiiyak. My wedding gown was already covered with dirt. Kung sa ibang pagkakataon ay matatakot ako, ngunit masyado na akong nasasaktan para matakot.

They'll probably in a mess right now. Panigurado akong nagkakagulo na sa simbahan. Andreus invited so many people. I'm sure it will put him in embarrassment.

This isn't my wedding dream.

This isn't what I wished for.

Iyak lang ako ng iyak habang hinahaplos ang lapida ni mama. Kapag may nakakita sa akin ay paniguradong iisipin nilang isa akong multo na nagluluksa sa kaniyang libingan.

Running away.

That's what I've been doing all my life.
When I know I can't do anything, I just turn my back and run away. It's the easiest way for me.

Bigla akong napaisip.

What will happen next?

Will he get very angry, to the point that he'll want to kill me?

I stopped when I heard footsteps.

He stopped in front of me. Nanatili akong nakatingin sa baba na tanging sapatos at binti lang niya ang nakikita ko. He's still wearing his wedding suit.

He softly chuckled. "Two times," he said that made me confused.

"You broke my f–cking heart for f–cking two times. And I also forgave you for f–cking two times," he continued.

"What do you mean?" I asked, getting confuse and curious.

He sighed. "Do you resent me that much? "

I did not answer. I know that he already knew the answer. I'll forever resent him for the rest of my life.

"You can leave from my grasp now. "

Dahan-dahan akong umingala sa kaniya. Napaawang ang labi ko sa gulat.

Ginulo niya ang buhok niya at paulit ulit na umiling.

"Bullsh–t !" he cursed. "I f–cking wanted to tie you to me. Gusto kitang angkinin habang buhay. Pero sino nga ba naman ako? Ni hindi mo nga maalala kung sino talaga ako," he smiled but it didn't reach his eyes. . "Marahil nga tama ka. Masyado lang akong mapang angkin. "

He keeps confusing me. Why can't he just tell me the truth?! But then I ask my self, am I ready to face the truth? Probably no.

Muli siyang tumingin sa akin. Yung tingin na tagos hanggang sa kaluluwa ko.

And then, my heart already recognized its owner. It was beating crazily.

When our eyes locked, I finally got a full glimpse of him.

He's as wrecked as me.

But why?

"Nakalagay na sa pangalan mo ang shares ng company ng papa mo. Use it to start over. Magpakalalayo ka. Do whatever you want. Find the answers of your questions. I hope you really find the truth. "

What? Is this really happening?

Nanatili akong tahimik. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong maramdaman. Masaya? I should be. But something's wrong.

"We always do the f–cking worst shits for love," he chuckled.

Huh?

We remained silent. And then, he spoke words which made me resent him more. Yes, words from on Allejo.

"However, I won't let you go completely. I clearly told you that you can't hide from me. Fix yourself. I'll take you back someday. Kukunin kita ulit. It's not good bye. It's I'll see you later. " Naglakad na siya paalis.

Nanlumo ako sa sinabi niya. So everything has limitations. Of course, he's  f–cking Andreus Allejo!

In the midst of happiness, pain, and confusion, I muttered, "Thank you. "