youremyROC (Roc Royal Love Story Completed)

Skydiving✈✨

We have exactly one week left of school which means that we stay with the same teacher all day SO my amazing boyfriend, with his dashing good looks, bribed the teacher into marking us as present for the week. Finals were done, we really had no reason to go. I only have 6 more months with my boys so I'm gonna make it last.

I've never been so happy in my entire life! All my life I've been hated. Cutting. Feeling unloved and unwanted. I felt like the world would be a better place without me in it. I would get into near death situations and cry because I made it out alive. I would go stand in the mirror and just cry. Looking at myself was too much for me. I felt so ugly. Crying was all I could do. I'd cry myself to sleep some nights. Most of the time, Kelsi was there telling "my depressed ass that everything was gonna be okay cause it's always good in the hood" with a big tub of ice cream which usually made me cry harder. I really hated myself. But now, all of that is different. I'm smiling a real smile. I'm actually smiling, something people never saw. I haven't cut myself in 2 and a half months. The last time I cried, it was from laughing at the love of my life, Roc. He was the best thing that ever happened to me. Him being my boyfriend, I gained 3 more great friends, Ray, Prod, and Prince. Plus Jawan, Jacob, ya know. I just feel loved. When they see me they don't look at me in disgust, they smile a real smile like they're happy to see me. They confide their secrets in me. They treat me like I've always wanted someone to treat me. They make me feel loved and wanted. Especially Roc. How does he kiss my tiny lips? Everyone used to make fun of them. That was another reason I never smiled. They looked weird. But he looked past that. Deep down in my heart, I knew Roc truly loved me. That's all I've ever wanted, love. He makes me so happy! I've never just smiled when I heard someone's name. I never wanted to be around someone 24/7. I never trusted anyone ( besides Kelsi). I wasn't real. He brought out the real me.

It was Saturday and we woke up bright and early to get ready for skydiving. I truly don't like the idea of him skydiving but if it makes him happy then so be it.

I wore a tank top that said Young and so mischievous - Mac Miller and shorts with black toms.

Roc wore a shirt that said Mac miller with jeans. I like how we kinda sorta match everyday.

Kelsi wore a hollister shirt and shorts with sandals.

Prod, Ray, And Prince wore shirts with lines on them. They're just weird.

We piled into the black car and took off.

"You guys scared?"

Those IDIOTS, Roc, Prod, and Prince, who were skydiving spoke up, "I ain't never scared!"

"Nopee! Gotta be brave for my baby," Roc kissed me and I smiled. I love him so much.

"Nah, I'm chillin."

I chuckled," Prod what's up with you and 'chillin' you always say that!"

He didn't even respond to me. Rude ass.

I was pretty tired since we stayed up late last night. Roc, being dumb, posted a picture with his shirt up like "I turned up a little too much last night." I could've murdered him. Everybody though someone was sucking roczilla. I was so angry! I don't do that #1, #2 because i don't do it, no one will.

I don't do that open relationship stuff. He's mine and I'm his. That's all there is to it.

It took about an hour to get to the place. I'm still nervous about it all. What if Roc gets hurt? Or Prince & Prod? I don't know what I'd do with myself. They're like family to me. I can be "mindless" around them. Meaning I can be myself. They're the only ones that don't judge me. They make me feel like someone. To be honest.. They give me life. Without them, I have no life. I've only known them for about 2 months now but those 2 months have been everything.

They took us all in a room and explained the basics. Roc looks good in his harness. Haha. That stupid class was about 30 minutes. It was BORRRIIING! They finally let us out. Roc, Prod, and Prince went to go get off the plane while we waited in the room. They finally let us go out.

"Wow, Kelsi, Ray, look how high up they are."

"I know! It looks scary."

"I ain't never scared! That looks... Trendy?"

We all laughed.

"I don't even see them anymore guys."

"Me too."

"Me three, they better not try to kidnap my... Bros"

I glanced at the cameras remembering, "yeah and my boyfriend. I hope they'll be okay."

Ten minutes later we saw 3 things falling from the sky.

"They did it!"

"Go baby!"

"Haha, I'm such a wimp. That's nothing!"

"That's so cool! I'm extremely proud of them!

"But wait Bianca," ray paused, "where are their parachutes??"

Why does it look like they're getting closer to the ground? With no parachute? Raywas right.

"Guys....." "NOOOOOOO!!!!!! ROC!!!!!"

Oh my god! I can't lose them. No. Not right now. They continued to fall from the sky. The camera men were recording like nothing was going on. "You stupid fucks! My boyfriend and best friends are dying! Do something you dicks!!!!"

This can't be real. I shook my head blinking tears away. I can't lose Roc. I lost him once, unknowingly, and I'm not willing to do it again. He's my life. The only boy I ever loved. I felt like my world was falling down before my eyes. Everything is just happening so fast. "FUCK! I shouldn't have agreed to let him do this."

I looked over to see Kelsi bawling her eyes out. She ran to the bathroom but I couldn't believe my eyes. Ray put his hand on my shoulder so that I could face him. I sobbed in his shirt for what seemed like forever. I knew he was crying too. Those were his bros. He knew them better than anyone else. I can't imagine how bad he must feel. "Shhh, it'll be okay Bianca."

How will it ever be okay? The only guy that ever loved me, gone. The only guy who can truly make me happy, gone. The only guy that I'll ever want! The only guy I'll ever NEED is fucking gone! And I watched him fall. I didn't even try to help. "I'm so stupid." I mumbled into Rays shoulder.. "He's gone. He's gone." I went to go sit down knowing that if I fainted, Ray wouldn't be able to lift me.

My heart and soul.... gone. I feel hopeless, scared, angry, frustrated, alone, afraid, and just all around heart broken.

"Time heals all."

"And heels hurt to walk in!" I snap. I'm tired of them telling me I'll need time.

"What I need is ROC! And he's gone! Prince, gone! Prod, gone! What don't you understand? I've lost 3 of the most important people in my life!! I feel numb. Like someone just ran over my heart with a bulldozer," I let out a dry laugh, "I loved him. Don't you see? He gave me life! He was my life! What will I do without him? This can't be real. I'm trying to convince myself that they aren't dead. My world is about to tumble down, I'm losing control. I'm so fucking angry! Why did they have to do it?"

Once they finally calmed me down, we walked back into the room the took us in first and spotted Prod, Prince, and Roc? Then I fainted.

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