Lost love

PRETENCE, My NEW THING

Ever felt numb?
Like no feelings at all, just you and your head
The feeling like your heart has stopped functioning or maybe you just stop listening to it.
This heart! This little angel has put me in so many entanglement that seems so hard to free from.
Catching the fluid called feelings easily, holding on to something that seems rather impossible then later realizing it lost, tries to resign in defeat out of embarrassment but still can't get use to the feeling of being vanquished, so here we are again reminiscing on the lost love
A beautiful recap; The little things that matters to me, some of these moment might have slipped out of your mind, but they are memories I hold dearly in my little angel...
I sitting face to face with you watching you talk, we both lying on the high top of the hotel bed watching movies on your Laptop, movies we never seem to watch to the end, cos our hands don't seem to know it position when we are together.
You cracking jokes that ain't really funny, but your excitement when narrating them to me brings life to the comedy in it...
Watching you demonstrate a new dance step you just learnt, (that big body of yours can't move daddy?😩😂😂)
Watching you fake an accent unconsciously! Oouuu!!!
So Many little random thoughts that brings nothing but excitement to your/my queen's hole
My head is having it way now, overshadowing the prowess of the heart, and the heart still long for you, but you seem so happy with she,
so what do I do? Sit afar and watch you live this happiness because you deserve it, only wish the she was Me
But Nevertheless as the ordinary Man would say ; If you are happy, then I am happy 😊
PRETENSE,my new thing ?😩
Sorry daddy I ain't HAPPY 😊💔. ~Nev 💔