Jupiter made this<3 : )
Ive been panicking alot, i cant stop stressing over things that are in the past. I think i have ptsd, or anxiety over it. I cant stop thinking of my old school and how they would treat me, its just the fact that they would cause me panic attacks. And taunt me so much, they called me a crybaby cause of how much they saw me crying. Ive never mentioned this but they always said "Wrist reveal emo girl!" and i always got bullied and called a devil for my religion too. They never believed that i was arabic cause i looked white :( i said i would show my mom to them and they still never believed me i even told the teachers and councilors about it and they didnt do anything about it. The lunch always made me vomit, i felt like i was being poisoned every single day! So i just stopped eating the lunch and ate when i got home, i would always go to my sister to talk to for support and to cry to (ilysm googa<3),and everyday i came back they always told me to stfu when i didnt even say anything. They always sexually harassed me an they called me suicidal. Some kid saw me Self harming with my own badge that was ripped a little to the point it was sharp, they told everyone that i self harmed. And when i was in reading it was the worst. I had a table full of bullies and they would constantly make fun of me. I can see how it IS my fault, i shouldn't have looked "emo" and i should've talked more. My tears always felt like acid everytime i sobbed quietly in class, they pushed me as far as i could go. I lacked the words to let anyone know, i tried talking to someone about it but they always interrupted me, THE HATRED I FEEL TOWARDS THEM. IT IS MY FAULT. I SHOULD HAVE NEVER EVEN SAID A FUCKING WORD TO THAT GOD DAMN CLASS. WHAT WAS SO WEIRD ABOUT ME? DID I SMELL? DID I LAUGH WRONG? DOES MY VOICE SOUND BAD? YOU ALL PUSHED MY BUTTONS EXCEPT FOR THE RIGHT ONE TO LET ME BE KIND. I WISH IVE NEVER EVEN WENT TO THAT SCHOOL. I FUCKING HATE YOU ALL FOR IT. I WANT YOU ALL TO DIE. DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE. I WAS TRYING MY BEST AND THIS WAS THE THANKS I GOT. NO WONDER WHY YOU GUYS WERE AFRAID OF ME. MASON YOU FUCKING CUNT NEVER HIT ON MY SISTER EVER AGAIN NOR MY MOTHER YOU PIECE OF SHIT. I TRIED BEING YOUR FRIEND EVEN TOO. I NEVER HAD ANYFRIENDS UNLESS IT WAS THE OTHER CLASSES, YOU ALL HAD TO EMBARRASS ME BY MAKING ME CRY AND RUN OUT INTO THE FUCKING HALL YOU TRASHBAGS I WILL MAKE SURE I WILL GET MY REVENGE ON YOU CUNTS. I NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG I WAS A GOOD KID. SOMETHING IN YOUR FUCKING HEADS ARE MESSED UP.
Sincerely,
Mama Jupiter! <3
