Dear life,
She thinks that i have nothing to worry about but all you have to do is look at my family closely to see that this family is broken on the inside but the outside we a disaster waiting to happen we try so hard on being perfect in the ways of the bible that we don't see each others pain on the inside or just don't take the time to see what it is and my theory of my life repeats itself for another person left me behind and expect me to be fine with whatever they decided on live on with just because they cant i can't do that this is also the reason i don't open up about myself no more to the people i should be able to i don't trust adults cause they will say that wish they could go back when they were that age again but in my mind they want to go back to peer pressure and being outcast by society because of what they dress or skin color or heritage that you have because it doesn't go with everyone else yes this is what i think about on a daily base this just scratch the surface of what i think about case i think about if someone in my family were to die where would i go who would take me in but im name a bad child because of the way i speak when i just want to speak the truth so i guess im supposed to be a liar and fake a smile until i die but i don't want to die that way i want to die without regret even if that i have to die on the streets because i wanted to fight for what i believe in so i will be the bad child until someone see this i will take punishment and not hold back my version of the truth even if its not wanted but to be frank i the she just mad that i can read her like a book and know when and how she is going to get in trouble and that irritates her pretty bad that it make her do stupid things that she knew i get yelled at for but there will be a day when they come to protect her and i go off on all of them but for know i keep it to myself.
Love your depressed bean:)
