*SBS*

episode *10*

Sadik's pov

I reached home with different thoughts disturbing my mind,

I didn't marry amira to divorce her,
i married her to punish her but till date i ask myself this question, why did i get married to her, it was just as if i was hypnotized,

Sir!
what will you have for dinner,
mami, my nanny muttered as i shaked my head negatively,

I need nothing mami,
nothing at all, i said as i sit on the sofa,

When you were a little kid,
you always keep things to yourself,
you never shared your problems but problem shared is half solved, mami muttered making me smile at her,

Nothing is disturbing me mami,
i am just stressed out, i will rest and go to my room, i said calmly closing my eyes but i felt mami was looking at me, she left after some few seconds,

What can i share,
mum is fighting with her brother,
meera want to earn respect, none of them is asking me about what i want, i just wanted to know the reason why i married meera, they are so many ways of punishment, why did i choose marriage,

Sadik!
amira's voice struck me as i look at her,

Where have you been lost,
i have been talking to you, meera muttered making me look at her more carefully, her hazel eyes were glowing shiny white, her pink lips, her long wet hair,

Stop staring sadik,
she muttered making me remembered what happened at our house,

I don't want to talk,
just get out of my sight, i muttered as i brush my hair with my fingers,

Sadik you can't just shun me anytime you feel like, i am not an instrument that you can use when you feel like, i am meera, your wife, she muttered sitting beside me as i sighed heavily,

Why did i married you meera,
i blurted out making her eyes dazzle on me,

You didn't have any affection nor do you care about my feelings, i have always cherish love because i never fall in love, i have always dream to see my prince charming, i know you don't love me, but can't you pretend you do, at least i will feel good, meera muttered tears rolling down her cheeks as she cleans it with her palms,

Do you know that i have no intentions of marrying, i only want to be successful in life, my mum always advises me to get married but i never listened, i guess it's the reason she is been furious, i said as amira holds my hand,

Tell me how to win your love,
sadik i really want to feel your love,
i know that i am deeply in love with you and i can't stop myself no matter what, you and your mum hurt my feelings deeply, she said as tears dropped on my hand making me look at her,

Uhm---------------
i just sighed and walked to my room leaving meera alone in the sitting room,

What should i say,
i can't even explain what i am feeling, i knew that any lady that comes before me will be injected with my love, but i only love bilikis, amira is a very good person i admit but i guess i didn't see my type in her,

People always think that i am happy but the truth is i dwell in troubles, i don't know what i want and i don't know how to react when someone expresses their love to me, bilikis love me for who i am but why did meera love me, i guess i have no answers,

I just said my prayers and rested my head on my palm,

I don't know who decided the alliance with meera, is it really me, or someone else, i really think marriage is a kids play, haidar is right,.i can't divorce meera nor could i go against umma, father is already disappointed in me and meera has expressed her feelings, whereas me i don't want anything, i just want to be that successful SBS, oh rabb please guide me through.