Confessions

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"Really Kurt? Glee club!" Carson exclaimed when Kurt got home. He had been in the middle of writing a story for the school paper when he had gotten a text from Chris telling him that he had seen Kurt's name on the sign-up sheet. "You realize that's social death, right?"

"Oh please. Like I was popular to begin with." Kurt said sarcastically. "Dad wanted me to join a club so I did. I may as well take part in something I'm at lease interested in." He went to sit across from Carson at the kitchen table. Carson just stared at him like he was crazy. "Look Carson, I like to sing so I joined a singing group. It's not a big deal."

"Well I guess not but you're practically announcing you're gay. No guy in their right mind would join that." Carson immediately regretted his words. Kurt looked down at his lap silently. He didn't look at his brother as he got up and left the room. "No wait Kurt! That's not what I meant. I'm sorry!" He shouted but the boy didn't come back. The sound of the front door opening and closing made him jump. He hoped Kurt didn't just leave; he wanted to try to apologize again.

Instead Chris walked into the kitchen setting his bag on the counter. "Did you try to talk him out of it yet?" He asked as he sat in the seat across from him.

"Yeah... And I kind of screwed up big time." Chris's eyes widened.

"What did you do?" He whispered harshly, making Carson flinch.

"I may have inquired that only gay people would join the club." Carson couldn't look at Chris as he said it. He knew how he would react.

"WHAT!" Chris didn't try to stay quite like he had before. He got up and started pacing around the kitchen. "You idiot! Why would you say that when you know he's gay? Let along at all! Ugh! I know he's not out yet but you knew!" Chris plopped down in the seat again and dropped his head into his hands. "Would you have said that to me if I had joined?" He whispered, not looking up.

Carson was surprised and unsure of what to say. "What do you mean?"

Chris looked up, his eyes red with unshed tears. "Would you have said to me what you said to Kurt if I had joined the glee club?"

"Um. Probably. I wasn't really thinking, I just said it." Carson felt so guilty and now he was confused. Why was Chris acting weird? "Why? Do you want to join too?"

"No but as a gay guy I'm very offended by your accusation." Chris shouted, startling Carson and himself. Both boys' eyes grew wide at the confession. Chris hadn't meant to say how he truly felt; he just wanted to make sure that Carson knew he had been in the wrong. Only now the truth was out, and he was a little scared for his brother's reaction.

Carson sat in shock. This was not how he had imagined his afternoon going. He had just wanted to go home, do homework, and go to sleep. Instead he had offended both of his brothers and one of them had confessed a personal secret.

Carson tried to speak but he found he didn't know what to say. Instead he got up from his seat and walked around the table to his brother. He pulled him to his feet and engulfed him in a warm hug. Chris's unshed tears began to trickle down his cheeks and onto Carson's sweatshirt. They stayed still for what seemed like an hour before finally breaking apart.

Chris tried to wipe away the tear tracks from his face but Carson beat him to it. He smiled encouragingly and finally spoke. "So, I'll admit I didn't see this coming. I mean, we always knew about Kurt, but you were never that obvious. At all for that matter. Like, literally. I had no idea."

Chris found himself chuckling and smiling. "Yeah, no one ever asked so I didn't really feel like I needed to tell." Now Carson laughed. Chris hesitated before asking, "Are we ok?"

"Of course. Why wouldn't we be?" Carson went to hug him again and Chris welcomed it gratefully. The hug didn't last as long as the last one but this one was less comforting and more loving. When Carson pulled back he turned serious again. "Now that I have apologized to one Bro, I need to go beg forgiveness from another. You ok?"

"Never better." Chris said honestly, grinning from ear to ear. Carson returned the smile and went to look for Kurt. Chris stayed in the kitchen, still smiling, happy he had finally told someone important to him his biggest secret.

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Carson found Kurt in his room, face down on his bed, with his head under a pillow. "Kurt can we talk for a second?"

"I don't know." Came a mumbled reply. "Are you going to call me gay again?"

Carson sighed. "There's nothing wrong with being gay Kurt. I'm really sorry for what I said. I've had my head put into perspective. The second I said it I knew I had fucked up so bad." Kurt pulled his head out from under the pillow and turned to look at him.

"It's ok Carson." He said as he got off his bed and crossed the room. "I know what you meant. I've heard it at school before. I guess I just didn't expect to hear it at home."

"You shouldn't be hearing it at all. Listen I've talked to Chris and I am so sorry. I am in your corner one hundred percent. I don't care if your gay, straight, or anything in between. And I am no longer going to judge a book by it's cover. You should join the glee club. I think you'll really enjoy it."

Kurt gave Carson a soft smile. "I know I will. I mean it's going to be constant competition for solos, and we could use a strong male lead, but it's going to be fun none the less." Carson loved hearing how enthusiastic Kurt was for a club that barely existed yet.

"Who's joined so far?" He asked, honestly curious.

Kurt beamed as he continued. "Well there's that obnoxious Rachel Berry, but I don't think she'll be too bad. That kid in the wheel chair. I don't remember his name right now. The goth Asian girl Tina, and a really nice girl named Mercedes. I think we could be really good friends."

"Well I'm really happy for you." Carson said as he walked forward to hug Kurt. The boy returned the embrace and stepped back.

"Hey, do you think Chris would join too? He can sing."

Carson chuckled. "Just because he can sing doesn't mean he wants to join the club Kurt. And besides, he's more into acting. And hey! Your not going to ask me to join?" Kurt burst out laughing. "And for your information I can sing too you know. I mean I really don't want to, but I can."

"Thanks Carson." Kurt said happily. Carson was confused on whether he was being thanked for the joke or for just talking and apologizing to him in general. Either way he was glad he was able to make Kurt smile.

"Dads going to be home soon. I can't wait to tell him I joined a team. Now he can't take my sewing machine away." Kurt said giddily.

"Heaven forbid!" Carson said as he tried to hold back his laughter. "Come on I'll help you with dinner." Together they walked back downstairs to the kitchen. Chris was sitting at the table working on homework. When they entered the room Chris looked up and locked eyes with Carson. He smiled in return and they all settled into the rhythm of a normal night together. All equally happy.

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Hey! So I felt that I needed to tell the story of how Chris came out. I mean how Kurt came out is going to stay Cannon. That moment is just too beautiful to rewrite. Hope you enjoyed and if you did please leave a vote and your opinion on the chapter along with ideas for chapters to come! Thank you!

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