vent book

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these people make me laugh and they distract me they remind me when i was younger and i didn't have a care in the world

tw this is a vent book so read at your own caution
and you don't have to read this :]

ok so......

i'm happy sometimes
i havr a fine family
i have ok siblings
a good school
good grades and i have friends but

whenever i feel like i messed up or hurt someone i feel like it's my fault and my mine will throw insults at me.. so i always say sorry to make sure i didn't hurt them and half the time they normally don't really question why i say it so often

i have a amazing life

but i always get these dumb thoughts and i even thought of killing myself multiple times

and ik i shouldn't be thinking these because i have a better life then a lot of the world and i can't help but feel guilty by feeling this way and i have so much

i feel like i don't deserve my friends or family or anythivv