Parallax

Chapter 10

Bella sneaked a glance at the other's reactions afraid that she might have gone too far with her outburst but she was surprised to see the family looking at her in approval. Even Rosalie who kept dismissing her earlier seems to be agreeing with her.

Edward was now looking at her in awe.

"Do you know why in so adamant in trying to change your mind?" Bella sighed heavily and added.

"Because before I got here, I destroyed a vampire who wanted to be destroyed. He had asked for it. He was worse than you because he was a human drinker yet he was exactly just like you. He fell in love with a human and just like you, he was afraid of damning her soul, of tainting her humanity. He wanted a normal life for her so he ran away.

Sound familiar?

He wanted to protect her just like you but there was one vital information that both of you forgot... You forgot that you're not the only one who can feel the mating bond. You think that because we're human, that we won't feel the same intensity as you. A mating bond is a mating bond, whether your mate is human or not. We can feel it just as strongly as you and when you leave, we can feel it as strongly as you too but our human body doesn't have that capacity to bear that kind of pain."

She paused. She didn't want him to feel guilty about what he did to Bella but he needed to understand what could have happened or what may happen if Edward will continue to insist that him leaving is the best way to keep Bella alive.

"Edward, her mate died because she couldn't take that pain anymore and he begged me to kill him because he can no longer endure the pain of existing without his mate... He tried... For twenty years he tried to live in an existence that was not worth living for him. He begged for death but no one would give it to him until he met me.

And then I get here and see that a version of me is in that same situation before I took over and might possibly suffer the same fate like they did!

Do you really think I would allow her to die just like that? Because you took her happiness away from her because you think you're not worthy for her? It's not about who's worthy for Bella. It's who she is happy with and it's you... You have to believe that and you have to believe in your love."

"I... I only wanted her to be safe..." Edward almost whispered the words and Bella felt sorry for him. She knew Edward only had good intentions for her but he was looking at their relationship the wrong way. He was looking at it as a curse for her rather than a blessing for both of them.

"She'll only be safe when she's with you..." she touched his arm and she could see the conflict in his eyes and Bella's heart went out for him.

"Is she... is she okay?" It took a minute before he finally dared to ask while looking into her soft brown eyes. Maybe if he looked hard enough, she'll find his Bella there but the future Bella just shook her head sadly.

"No, she's not..." she told him truthfully and he winced.

"I woke up in her body after she nearly drowned after jumping from a cliff because apparently, she sees you and hears your voice whenever she tries to do something reckless." After she got her counterparts memories, she finally got the real reason why she jumped and she could not believe what this Bella had tried just to be able to get a glimpse of an imaginary Edward, to make sure that she was not just imagining him as being part of her life and it was sad that she had to resort to that.

"What – "

Bella didn't give him a chance to continue.

"She spent the last few months cocooned in her own body, living but not really, not allowing herself to feel anything other than emptiness. She was alone even when she was surrounded by family because nobody understood why your leaving made her that way. She would wake up every night screaming because she had to relive that moment that you left her, when you told her that she was not good enough for you, that you didn't love her, in her dreams... every single night.