My dearest, Ariana:
People say that "Parting is such sweet sorrow"
Never understood them until now
As you laid there
Peacefully.
How could one make sleeping look
so geaceful.
But I knew you weren't sleeping
And that fact hurt.
I choked back these tears
Because I knew you'd hate that.
So instead, I ask.
How are you feeling?
How is it on the other side?
Because ee always wondered what
happened to us after death,
Where would we go?
And you'd say, "Neverland... because the sun never sets in neverland."
But you lied.
You were my neverland.
And your sun, she sets today.
Your beautiful sunset,
She sleeps at noon.
Being gone too soon.
The sorrow that you leave me in
will enigmatically
Fill me with a void
Of endless torture...
... loneliness
... drenched in dispair.
If I knew you were on borrowed time,
I'd apologize
For not being the man
The brother
Your little brother
you've always
Wanted me to be.
I make mistakes,
Time and time again
Yet your love, my dearest sister,
Never faltered.
I break knowing that you were robbed,
That I no longer have your
Honey glazed gaze
And your constant bickering
Telling me I'm wrong.
Because you were right.
Always right
I am wrong.
Always wrong.
Always being wronged.
Meanwhile you were everything right in this world,
The morning dew
The first rain drops,
The rainbow adorning the sky with such life
That was all you.
That will always be you.
As we lay you down, one last time
I reached out, you know
To grasp you, latch onto you like I did
When I was younger
When I was 4
Maybe 5
But you were now far beyond my reach.
I gasped for air,
my lungs tightening
as tears pricked my eyes.
They burned.
Scorched.
More than the blazing sun
That was looking down on us
As if smiling,
I know God will be happy,
To have his child back.
Your requiem was beautiful, you know.
Adriana made sure of it.
Filled with all your favorites,
Carnations, tulips
And rose.
Oh those roses all filled with torns.
Like your beautiful soul
That was taken from me.
Time is so cruel to us,
If only I had known,
If only.
You are gone,
Never forgotten.
Because the sun never sets in neverland,
And as long as the sun still shines,
you still live
Inside us
Inside me.
I Love you dearest and until I see you again.
Love, your dearest baby brother,
- M. A. V
