One Shot Heartbreak

Screen

How you ever love someone that you dont even meet and love him/her online?

I told myself i wouldn't fall in love with someone i just met behind screens.
Love for me was just a problem

My mindset before was that i should not fall in love because it's gonna break you in the end

Because i know it'll hurt. much more if its with a person i just met by social media.

But then, there he goes. He made me lost my control, he made me smile, he made me feel like I'm special

He made me admire him imperfections. and I know im starting to fall in love again

But were both scared to continue
That's why we both make a wrong choice

Things go wrong from here and there
And we question ourselves if its worth it to continue

But

I wanted you by myside
I wanted to meet you

But How can we love each other
Continuely if we both having a
A second thoughts?

You do something
It's hurt me

I do something
I hurt you

I said lies that i do something
For you to hate me

For you to easy to move on
and forget me already

I dont want to hurt you
I dont want to say goodbye

But the only option
We have right now

It's to end it..

Even if it's not me
I'll continue to like you from afar

I'm thankful for those times that you made me feel special
Miles apart but still not near
But youre always have a place in my heart

Still I wanted to hold on.
Still I wanted to love you

But I dont know if youre strong enough
to be with someone like me

I wanna go back from our yesterday's best moments and memories

Thank you for the memories and all. i feel comfortable with you. I will miss you

I will always love you even if it's hurts between you and me that I end up with a trouble mind.

Even if the chance of having you is relatively small now, Im hoping that one day you will comeback to me

I want us to be back again
I promise I'm gonna changed

But I'm scared to know, to see.
If your still love me

I know that there's someone
Right now making you happy

I hope I can be that one
But i know I cant be right now

And i know you already moving on
And already having someone there

So let me be the one to break it up
So you wouldn't have to make
Excuses

It's really hurt for me to know
That you have someone there that can

Be with you

Talk to you

Cried with you

Make you laugh

All things that i want to do to you
Someone else will gonna do it for you now

I hope you will be happy
Even if im not the reason for it
Anymore

You will still have a special place in my mind and my heart :)

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Author's note:
actually this is not the first chapter of this story but this is my random thought right now 💔
Please do read the next chapter if you want to read and feel more heartbreaking thoughts and stories 🙂💔