To Be Back Again

Prologue

THE PROLOGUE

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It's quite challenging to make decisions on your own in life. Especially, from the moment that I chose and pursued this decision, I know... I know that it will be the beginning of my end.

The biggest decision I've ever made in my whole life was to leave my home country. In the past years, I developed into an independent, brave, and well-known woman at the age of twenty-two.

Being one of those top well-known Filipina fashion models in Switzerland is a big dream, right? Because who would have thought that someone like me, who was just a happy-go-lucky girl during her college days, would become a fashion model in another country? I can really say that it was all worth it. Actually, I have been exhausted since the beginning of this journey. Missing my family and closed friends for the past five years is not that easy.

Ngayong alam kong may isang espesyal na tao akong nasaktan ng sobra dahil sa ginawa kong pag-alis... Gusto kong humingi ng tawad at mag-explain pero kapag hinarap ko naman siya ay para bang ang kapal-kapal ng pagmumukha ko para magpakita pa sa kaniya pagkatapos ko siyang talirukan para sa pangarap ko noon. Ayaw ko naman na ganoon. Gusto ko na kapag nagkita na kami, masaya at buo na kami pareho. Iyong wala na talagang kulang sa pagkatao namin.

Fully healed. Good health. Happy lifestyle.

I just want him to achieve those goals.

"On behalf of Heaven Sky Airlines and the entire crew, I'd like to thank you for joining us on this trip and we are looking forward to seeing you on board again in the near future. Have a nice day/evening/night/stay!"

After fifteen hours of my trip, we'd been finally arrived! Nasa Pilipinas na ako! Gosh! I just can't imagine that I actually did... Akala ko, akala ko talaga ay hindi na ako babalik dito.

Thank God that no one recognizes me, naka-mask at shades naman ako actually. My face was covered with a scarf too. You know what, I actually once hated this. Kapag nasa industriya ka kasi, para bang hawak ka ng mga tao sa leeg. Bilang lang ang mga galaw dahil baka mapuna agad ng mga tao. Society really sucks.

Paunti-unti naman, iyong mga bagay na hindi ko naman ginagawa at nagagawa noon ay nagagawa at ginagawa ko na ngayon. I need to change. Not because I wanted to, but because of the people who have continued to love, support, believe in, and believe in me as I have entered the field.

As a Filipino, it's really hard to take some opportunities especially when you're thinking that you have no one, that you have no people at your back since you're out of your comfort zone... That your life in the Philippines is different from here in Switzerland. But I guess I am this lucky, I have my people beside me through the ups and downs of my career, but now, I will choose my very first people, supporter, believer, and family... My home. The Philippines. My Mom. Siblings. Friends... And myself.

Sa pagkakataong ito, pipiliin at gagawin ko na muna ang gusto ko talagang gawin. Pipiliin ko naman ngayon ang mga taong unang naniwala sa akin, bago pa man ako nakilala ng buong mundo.

Mang Jude, our family's driver, who has been working for my family for twenty years, was here to fetch me.