Imperfect Love

Forever And A While pt.1

"Forever and A While" they said as they stood in front of the altar getting married through a blood vow. It was her happy day, it was everything she had ever wanted, it was her and her favourite person in the entire world. The happiness, the smiles, the joy, they couldn’t compare to those of any other day. It was better, way better than she had thought. And for today it was all about her, everyone's life would continue tomorrow but today, today was about her, how she looked, how she felt, what she did and what she chose, it was all about her and her happiness only, just for today the whole world revolves around her. As she sat in the chair waiting for her sister who was also her maid of honor she realised that something was missing, it definitely wasn’t like she had planned. Cold feet arose as she realised that her parents were missing, they were missing from her perfect day. This wasn’t what she planned, she planned to be walked down the aisle by her brother and father, she would start crying because it was only then that she would realise what was happening and her mom would kiss her on the cheek and tell her to get up there because this is what she wants, but it’s not like she planned, it’s just her and her siblings, her brother is walking her down the aisle and her sister is her maid of honor. Don’t get me wrong this is also perfect because not many get this, but it’s just not what I planned. What if this is a mistake, what if this right now is a sign, a sign for me to run before it is too late? What was I thinking? I can’t do this without my parents, I need them, I need my mom here to tell me that it would all be okay, to hold my hand along the way and teach me things about a married life, to hold my hands when I will go into labor from my first child, to tell me that it’s all going to be okay and I’m just worried because this is my first. And my dad, oh my dad, he needs to be here to tell my husband that it’s going to be okay while they both panic outside my hospital room, I’d need him to come in after and see his grandbaby, he would kiss me on my forehead and say “muffin, you’re a mom now.” . He would look at me with joy and disbelief in his eyes because his muffin had grown up to be an amazing woman. This, this is not what I planned, I didn’t plan this without my parents in the picture because they were meant to be here, because I...I need them here. This might not be what I planned for but I was marrying the love of my life, my soulmate, my significant other, the one that would call my daughter muffin and kiss her bruises, I was marrying My One. They say every girl looks to find a man that will love her the way her father loves.. or in my case loved her and without doubt I can say I found mine, he loves me like my father loved me, treats me right like my father did, it’s like growing up all over again. He was the exact replica of my dad, if I were a stranger I’d guess that they were father and son and in that case I’d say the apple didn’t fall far from the tree at all. He was perfect. It all happened so fast but only because when I met him I felt like I had known him for years. He was everything, he’s the man who turns my world, he’s perfect and I couldn’t ask for more. I love Zayn in a way I have never loved before and I still cannot believe I am marrying him. My thoughts clouded my mind, all very different, some of fear and some of happiness. I have no idea what will happen after today but all I know is that no matter where this path leads to I’ will be walking it with the person I love, and with my family by my side. I can’t wait to marry him. A sudden knock on the door frightened me a bit, but it was the person I’d been waiting for, it was my sister here to tell me that it’s time. As I left my room I looked to the end of the hall where a dark figure stood, it looked like my father but it was my brother. He wore my dad’s suit, the one he had been saving for my wedding. He let his beard grow a bit so it could match my dads. I know this day is not the same without mom and dad here but I’m hoping to make it just as memorable and I’m sure it will be great because knowing mom and dad I know that they are probably screaming in the ears of the wedding staff. I chuckled as one tear left my eye. Don’t cry, this is your happy day. I know, it’s just that this is exactly what dad would have wanted if he knew he wouldn’t make it. He would even lecture you about growing a beard for my wedding and he would say… “You gotta do it for Muffin” my brother said the words in the same way my dad would. It’s a bittersweet moment and I know it’s unfair that you don’t get to have them here, but I believe they’re here with us in spirit probably with front row seats watching you from heaven. Thank you for doing this. Oh enjoy it because after this we’re going back to that “I’d give you my kidney, but won’t get you water from the kitchen” relationship. Hey, having a sibling moment without me? Oh Di.. you know I love. Hey no more tears, you still need to walk down the aisle with your makeup intact, now c’mon let’s show Zayn his “almost” wife.