Written In Reverse

Part 9

Tama na.

Tama na muna.

Now is not the time to be weak. My Dad is counting on me. And my fans are awaiting my comeback.

I must get my shit together just until matapos to.

I grabbed the shower head from ate Mads.

"I'm good...I'm good. Kaya ko."

"Alright. Can you take it from here?"

"Yes ate" mahina kong sagot.

"I'll be right outside the door. Wag kang makakaisip ng anong kalokohan jan ha" sabi ni ate Mads at lumabas na.

I took a deep breath and just let my tears fall while I washed myself.

Hhhhmmm should I bang my wrists or knees on the wash basin?

Or maybe I could put shampoo on the floor at sadyain na madulas ako?

That mirror looks like it could use someone ramming their head into it.

Anything to injure myself out of the conference.

Wait, ano na ba tong mga naiisip ko?

Focus Deanna. It's not the end of the world.

Dad needs you.

Nagmadali akong magbihis, grabbed my stuff and put on my sunglasses to cover my eyes.

Saktong sakto after a few minutes ay dumating na yung bus.

Buti nalang may safety protocols. No physical contact muna hanggang ma swab kaming lahat.

Kaya kaway2 lang sa teammates pag sakay namin ng bus. Di rin obvious if I'm smiling or not due to my facemask.

Don't get me wrong. I have missed them a lot but I just don't think I have the energy to be cheerful right now.

Baka ma iyak pa ako if nag hug silang lahat.

When we arrived sa accommodation, may team nang naka PPE ang nag aantay samin.

Swab test kaagad and nobody is allowed to go out of our rooms until we received our results.

Ewan ko ba. Parang part of me was hoping na sana mag positive nalang ko. It's a pretty valid excuse for not playing.