(A/N): watching Season 2 as I'm writing this. I'M FREAKING OUT!
⚠️warnings⚠️: abuse (if reading that type of stuff makes you uncomfortable, I don't recommend reading this)
"I still can't believe you took that gun," Kiera said, shaking her head.
"I'm only gonna use it for self defense," JJ reasoned, turning the gun in his hands.
"Just be careful with it," I said. We were all sitting in John B's chateau like we do almost every night, talking about The Royal Merchant. I had dumbly chosen the seat next to JJ, where he was holding the gun. JJ had never really liked me, and he wasn't always the nicest to me but, I never understood why.
"No one asked you to talk y/n." JJ retorted, bringing his hand up, making me flinch and cover my face with my hands. After nothing happened, I slowly removed my hands from my face, to see everyone gave me a weird look, including JJ as he just simply was running his fingers through his hair. I let out a sigh of relief, and then looked outside, noticing how dark it was.
"Hey Kie, what time is it?" I asked, panic rising in my voice.
"Almost midnight, why?" she asked.
"Shit!" I said, jumping up from the spot next to JJ. I turned to run out of the chateau but JJ grabbed my wrist, causing me to spin around.
"Where are you off to in such a rush?" he interrogated, and tears pricked my eyes.
"Please let me go," I whimpered, and his face softened slightly, taking his hand off my wrist.
"I didn't mean to-"
I ran out the door, not letting him finish and jumped on my bike. I pedaled faster than I ever have, my heart rate increasing from fear, and exhaustion. I made it back to my house to see my Dad standing on the porch, a beer in his hand. I propped my bike up and slowly walked towards my house. My Dad stormed outside, his eyes filled with anger.
"Where were you?" he said, raising his voice.
"I SAID WHERE WERE YOU?!" my Dad yelled again, and a tear fell down my face.
"I'm sorry Dad, I wasn't paying attention to the time and-"
My Dad lifted his hand, and I felt a sharp pain in my nose. I fell to the ground, covering my face. I felt warm liquid trickling down my nose, mixing with the tears running down my face.
"Please Dad, I didn't mean to-"
"Shut up you piece of shit!" he bellowed, kicking me in the stomach. I coughed, clutching my stomach. I clenched my eyes shut, waiting for him to hit me again but he didn't. I opened my eyes, to see him storm into the house, slamming the door. I laid on the ground, pain shooting through my ribs. I heard footsteps running up to me, JJ appearing by my side, I swear I saw tears falling down his face. He sat down beside me, and I managed to crawl to him, throwing my arms around his neck, and wrapping my legs around his hips. I immediately burst out sobbing, my head falling onto his shoulder.
"I-It hurts," I cried, my body shaking. "It really hurts JJ,"
"I know it does...it'll go away. I promise." he whispered, hugging me close to him. "Just keep your eyes open for me,"
I wrapped my arms around his torso, and rested my head on his shoulder, quiet sobs escaping my lips. I cried for a good five minutes, and then the sobs turned into small cries, the cries turning into sniffles. JJ arms were clinging onto me like I was gonna disappear. I didn't really care about how he had been treating me because all that mattered was that he seemed to care about me. I lifted my head from his shoulder to look at him and tears were falling down his face.
"Why are you crying?" I said, quietly, resting my hand on his cheek. He leaned into it, fluttering his eyes closed, more tears dripping down.
"I'm so sorry for the way I've been treating you," he whimpered, and I smiled softly at him.
"That's all I wanted to hear JJ," I said, wiping his tears away with my thumb.
"It's just that I'm not very good at showing any other emotion besides anger," he began, sniffling "So, I thought it would be easier to be mean to you, than to show you how I actually feel because I know you don't feel the same way, and I don't even know why I'm telling you this-"
"Just shut up and kiss me, you idiot." I interrupted, and he looked caught off guard but immediately cupped my face with his hand, and connected his lips to mine. I had to fight back a smile, as his hands slowly rubbed up and down my sides. It was a slow and gentle kiss, like we had been waiting for it, and wanted it to last forever. Which it unfortunately did not, as we both had to pull away slightly, because we were smiling too much. I ran my fingers through his blonde hair, making him flutter his eyes close at the relaxing feeling.
"I'm never gonna let him hurt you again..." JJ whispered, opening his eyes to look at me. "I promise I'll do anything to keep you safe," he said, desperately and I nodded.
"I know you will," I stated, kissing his forehead. "Thank you for protecting me,"
He hummed in response, planting a soft kiss on my lips and I could taste the salt from all the tears.
"Please come stay with me at John B's" JJ pleaded, resting his hands on my hip.
"But my Dad-"
"Is never gonna touch you again," he finished, and my lips parted into a smile.
"Ok," I nodded, and he let out a sigh of relief. We both stood up, him slipping his arm around my waist.
We got back to John B's to see everyone asleep, mouths hanging open and limbs hanging off the couch. JJ chuckled, and we tip-toed into the bathroom.
"We need to clean the blood off your face," he said, wetting a rag. He lifted me up, and set me on the edge of the counter, standing in between my legs. He started cleaning the blood off my lips, and nose. I just stared at him, and as I did I saw his eyes glaze over with tears.
"I'm ok," I whispered, leaning forward and resting my forehead on his.
"I know, it just makes me sad," he stated, sniffling.
We finished up in the bathroom, and went to the spare bedroom. JJ laid on the bed before me, and opened his arms, making crab hands at me. I giggled, crawling onto the bed. I threw one of my legs over his, wrapping my arms around his waist and resting my head on his chest. I now know who to go to if I want to feel better.
"Y/n?"
"Yes?"
"I love you,"
My heart fluttered, and I lifted my head up, pecking his lips.
"I love you too J,"
