"Hey, This is a story I hate, and telling might make me break but I'll tell it anyway..."
Today was a normal day in Paris. I'm going over to my Boyfriend's boathouse for band practice. Yup, I'm in a band called Kitty Section with my boyfriend, his sister, his sister's girlfriend, and another one of our guy friends.
"Have a good day at band practice." My stepdad says as I leave out the hotel. I tell him bye then start walking down the street.
Halfway to my boyfriend's house, a girl calls my name. It's Marinette my boyfriend's 'best friend'. She is also our band's manager she helps with costumes and she also books us shows. I don't really like her that much. I feel like she likes my boyfriend but I don't want to seem like the crazy girlfriend so I push that feeling down and try to be nice to her.
"Hey, Marinette," I say with a fake smile. "Today I have to fix your mask, so you have to practice without it today," Marinette says. "Okay."
Last week our band was performing a show and my mask miraculously broke before the show. I think Marinette broke it to try to embarrass me.
We get to the boathouse and I see my perfect blue-haired boyfriend sitting on the stage playing his guitar. "Luka!" I yell running to him. "Zo!" He says putting his guitar down and standing up. I jump into his arms and he spins me around. "I missed you so much, baby," I say with my head in his neck. "I missed you too."
Marinette then comes up to us. "Hey, Luka," Marinette says. Then Luka puts me down and I stubble back some not expecting him to put me down. Then gives Marinette a big hug. "Hey, Marinette."
Luka and Marinette start talking and I feel invisible so I just go inside to his room.
"Hey, Zoe," Juleka says as I walk to Luka's room. "Hey, Juleka. Where's Rose?" I ask her. "She's in my room. If your looking for Luka he should have been outside." Juleka says. "I know, he's outside talking to Marinette, "I say rolling my eyes, and Juleka laughs.
Juleka is the only one who knows about me not liking Marinette and she knows the reasons why. "I can go yell at him if you want." Juleka says and I laugh."It's fine. I'll just stay in here you can come to get me when it's time for band practice." I say. "Okay," Juleka says then goes into her room and I go into Luka's.
Ten minutes later Luka never came into his room. I start thinking that he is not coming then the door opens and it Juleka and Rose. "It's time," Juleka says and I get up from Luka's bed and walk with them outside to the stage.
I stand on the stage in front of everyone and adjust the microphone to me my height.
"Hey bae where'd you go?" Luka asks coming up to me. "I was in your room.... you would have noticed if you weren't all over Marinette," I mumbled the last part without looking at him. "What did you say?" Luka asked. "Nothing I just said I was in your room warming up," I say still not looking at him. "Oh okay."
"What song are we doing first?" Ivan asked. "Um let's do brutal," I say. "Okay 5, 6, 7, 8," Ivan says then starts to hit his drums. Luka and Juleka start playing their guitars and Rose sings the chorus with me.
"I want it to be like messy"
"I'm so insecure, I think that I'll die before I drink
And I'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me and who hates you
And I'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be disappointed
Cause who am I, if not exploited"
"And I'm so sick of 17
Where's my fucking teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
"Enjoy your youth" I'm gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself
I'm anxious and nothing can help
And I wish I'd this before
And I wish people liked me more"
"All I did was try my best
This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
(Yeah!)"
"I feel like no one wants me
And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
And lately, I'm a nervous wreck
Cause I love people I don't like
And I hate every song I write
And I'm not and I'm not smart
And I can't even parallel park."
"All I did was try my best
This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessy upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is severe
God, it's brutal out here
(Yeah! Just having a really good time) "
"Got a broken ego, broken heart
(It's brutal out here, it's brutal out here)
And god, I don't even know where to start"
After about 2 hours of band practice, we all decided that was enough for Today. "Hey, bub is it okay if I sleepover tonight?" I ask him I haven't spent the night with my boyfriend in a while recently he has been spending a lot of time with another girl.
"Yeah, wanna go buy some snacks and rent a movie for tonight?" He asks me and I start smiling. "Yes please, but can we go now?" I ask him."Okay I was gonna go walk Marinette home anyways." He says and I'm kinda hurt because he never walks me home. "Okay," I say.
"Hey, Marinette is it okay if Zoe walks with us?" Luka asks her and you can just tell on her face that she doesn't want me there. "Um..yeah that's cool." She says then we leave for her house.
The whole way to Marinette's house Luka and Marinette talk about stuff that happened before I moved to Paris. I swear if I hear 'Remember when...' one more time I'm gonna lose it.
"Remember When your mom-"
"You know what! How about I go to the store and buy the snacks and the movie and just meet you back at your house." I say and we stopped walking. "Um if that's what you want to do. I mean is about to get dark are you sure you don't want me to go with you." Luka says. "It's fine," I say then I turn around and start walking the other way. "What is her problem?" Marinette asks Luka. I felt the New York in me jump out but I had to pull her back in. "I don't know she's probably just stressed I'll talk to her," Luka says to her.
My problem is that I shouldn't feel like a 3rd wheel when I'm hanging out with my boyfriend and his friend. He doesn't even notice. It's been like this for a while now, but I love Luka and I don't want to lose him so I'll just keep quiet, but deep I know he is going to end up with her. And that hurts me so much.
Disclaimer: No hate to Luka he is the love of my life I just felt like writing a sad story and right now the only ppl I like in MLB is Zoe and Luka but go read my other Lukzoe book if it's out lol
