Anger and rage is all that fills me now.
My parents just can't get off my case.
My step- loser yells at me; spiteful words.
And I have nothing better to do but listen because I know they're right.
There true.
And the pain is the only reminder... That any of this is real.
Other than that everything seems like a dream.
Verbal abuse... Is just as bad as physical abuse.
It causes mental breakdowns... Which is what I'm on the verge of.
My mother... Oh how I hate her.
My parents are divorced and I'm trapped in confusion.
My mother take pride and joy in taking away anything that ever matters to me.
My birth father used to be a physically abusive, prick.
Funny thing is... He's not anymore.
So why I stand to deal with my mother, and step- loser any longer is a wonder.
Is it because I can't leave my beautiful three year old sister?
Or I can't leave what little friends I have?
School is my only escape but even that is hell.
Everyone at that school hates me.
I'm about to reach high school where things can't be anything but worse.
I've tried many ways of escaping this... Pain.
Many solutions that has done nothing but fail.
My mother favors her little "buggy" (her three year old)
I've gone to people for support and help...
Nothing but utter failures.
I've gone to writing letters and never sending them to people (recommended my my mom)
She went in my room, looked in the drawer, opened them and read every single one.
My step loser said if I were to ever have any drugs in my room, he would find them.
I would never have anything like that in my room. And the fact that he said that kills me.
I feel so much pain from abandonedment and sorrow...
My eyes cry no more tears.
I'm bipolar.
I haven't been to a doctor about it but I know.
It's obvious.
Everyone can tell and knows.
Everything anyways seems like a dream.
And the days go by so fast and I have nothing left to do but watch my life be wasted away.
I need help, and I know it.
I just have nobody to turn to.
Will you help?
Please?
