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Beloved:Part 1

How can you say if you worth to fight for love?

How can you say that he/she loves you?

Just because he/she say so?

Or just because you feel it?assuming,right?!

''Hey,Love?don't be late.Take care,Love you.''

Stupid me!i should'nt trust him eh!I should stop!

''Opo napo,babyee!see you aroundd.I love you so muchiee!!''
I'm stupid right?after what he did to me,i still accept him.

I ended the call.

I prepared myself b'coz im gonna study pa!

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''Once a stupid forever stupiddd!!Bobaa kaa!?''My bestfriend said.out of frustration.kulang nalang hablutin at sabunutan niya ko.

I pouted.

''Bessy,naiintindihan ko namang mahal moyung lalake mo.Ang akin lang eh yung limitation moooo!!!nakita mo na palang m'e kalandian yon,tinanggap mopaaa!napaka bobaa!!''mahabang panghihimutok at sermon sakin ni Bessy.

Her name is Juliesa,my bff.She's always like that,she knows my relationship,palibhasa she knows my bf's life eh.chismosa kase,hahahaha!piece bessy.

''Eh kase naman bessy,hindi ko siya kayang bitawan,baka coincidence lang yung nangyare.I can't let him go,baka pag pinakawalan koyun makita mo ako sa mental.''im always like that.convincing myself.

She darkly stare at me and i can see how her nose response.nanlalaki kase butas ng ilong niye eh!

I give her V sign,piece!

''Tigilan moko ah,at bakit sa mental kita makikita?aberrr!?''i think i make her angry.waaaaahhh!!

Nakaupo lang ako at yumuko,i cant stand her watching, talking and big holee in her nosee!

''Syempre,I'm crazy over him eh.''i answered.baliw na nga talaga ako.

''Naku!hindi na talaga ako magtataka kung one time iwan ka niya!and about you mentioned earlier,yung coincidence ka diyaaan!napaka dami namang coincidence ang nakita mo ano?''she burst.sarcastically.

I shrugged my shoulders and look away.i dont want to talk about it.

''Hays,alright byee bessyy!''she bid our goodbyes and leave

Pumunta ako sa Park ng school namin.Malamang magmumukmok ako.hays.

I get my notebook and ballpens.siguro i will write a poems.

''Bakit nga ba tayo nasasaktan?''i start.

Guys?bakit nga ba?hindi naman siguro big deal.alright.

''Dahil hindi tayo mahal ng taong mahal natin?''haaays!i'm trying my best to think,...with all my heart.

Why?b'coz  relatable.Why again?kase hindi ako kamahal mahal.

I shook my head and write again.

''Or because iinisip mong mahal ka niya.''thats painful.dont you get it?your trying to convince yourself,na mahal ka niya.kahit na paulit ulit ka niyang tinutulak palayo,pero nung isang lapit at pakausap niya sayo tinanggap mo parin siya.

Tears pooled my eyes.bakit paulit ulit nalang?he always been like that.flirting with his gff,and his excused is 'She's my girl bestfriend,normal act for us'

''Paano ba pigilan ang pusong magmahal?''keep writing.i shed my tears,ni hindi ko manlang naramdamang tumulo ang luha ko.

''No one can't stop it.Kusa mong naramdam kaya kusa ring mawawala ang pagmamahal''i cry harder.basta sinalampak ko ang gamit sa bag ko.kainiss!!

Should i break him?uunahan ko siya?i need to!

''Hindi ko kayaaa!!huhuhu!''i burst out.

Naramdaman kong nagvibrate ang phone ko.someone's calling.Love.

''Laisy,let's meet later.I need to tell you something important'' Does he call me Laisy?ammm..important daw kaya siguro serious siya.right!.

I cleared my throat to answer him back.

''Alright Love,sa meeting place.I love you muchiee!byee''trying hard ako eh,pilit na pinapasaya ang boses ko.

Waiting him to answer back.

''Alright.Take care.bye.''
''Babe,let's go na!''

Walang 'I love you too'?,at waiitt?!babe?!i heard it right?.Gbf niya yon kaya normal act.hehehehe.that's it.

The call ended.