𝟵𝟵 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗯𝗹𝗲𝗺𝘀 ( 𝗘𝗹𝗶 𝗺𝗼𝘀𝗸𝗼𝘄𝗶𝘁𝘇/ 𝗛𝗮𝘄𝗸!)

t͜͡w͜͡e͜͡n͜͡t͜͡y͜͡-͜͡s͜͡i͜͡x͜͡

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To robby, my favorite and only brother

oh robby, you already know how much i appreciate you. and it hurts me so much you're opening this up. i'm sorry i never got to be there for your graduation, your kids, your wedding. I never got to be the cool aunt or travel with you. And i'm sorry. I hope the rest of your life is easy and you get the happiness you deserve. I hope that you find a relationship with dad, he loves you a lot. Thank you for always looking after me, i love you so much and you wouldn't understand. I'll be looking out for you so much, make you a billionaire hehe. i hope you move on from my death quickly because yes that's what i woukd have wanted you to do. stay out of trouble!! you've been doing great so far. i hope you continue to work hard. and that you do amazing things. you can live your life without worrying about me, celebrate your life. go partying, find the girl of your dreams, do what you have always wanted to do. Buy yourself that new skateboard. I love you robby. Stay safe for me.
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Love,
your best friend 4L. Amelia Keene.
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To dad, thank you for everything.

Dad, i know we started off rough and i'm sorry. thank you for taking me in. i'm glad to have you back into my life. It has been awesome. you're a really good karate teacher by the way HAHA. i love you dad, and however i died. you couldnt have stopped it. Thank you for being there for me and supporting me. I really couldn't have asked for a better dad. Thank you again, i hope you stay safe. And keep miguel safe. I love you dad.
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  Amelia Lawerence :).
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To Hawk, my husband. The one who i always loved.

hawk. i'm sorry. i'm sorry we didn't have the life we planned. our kids. our house. our life. i'm sorry. i love you hawk. and i always will. you made such a great impact on my life. how much i love you, no one else could understand. you saved me. you dealt with me. you protected  me.  and i thank you for that. you were my first actual love. and i'm glad to meet you. you're doing an amazing job, you're an amazing boyfriend. You are the love of my life. and i love you. i'm sorry we didn't make it to our anniversary. i woukd have loved doing whatever we planned with you. hawk. you have such a beautiful soul. even if you don't show it. thank you for always welcoming me, and thanks to your family too. I miss you a lot. But i want you to move on and continue with your life, i will always be besides you. and protect you. you made my highschool experience a lot better. and even though i have all your eli sweaters, you can take them back if you'd like (or dont.) you're welcomed to my room any time. anything mine is yours. oh hawk. how i wish i could kiss and hug you one last time. i hope you nothing but the best. graduate okay? you are going to be amazing. you already are. continue the hard work. I love you pretty boy, my forever. please name one of your daughters after me HAHA. don't stress yourself too much.

your girlfriend,
                                amelia keene (moskowitz)

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Hawk wasn't okay, and no one knew if he ever would. The day of the wedding he was numb. couldn't believe it still but there was his girlfriend in the casket.

People woukd try to talk to him but he woukd push them away. He wanted nothing to do with them.

And when he was forced to go back to school, he would only do his work and go back home. All junior year. he applied to the universities Amelia had looked for him.

He got accepted into all, but he had to choose. and that was hard.

He had not one hook up, one girlfiend, one kiss. The rest of junior year. Everyone had moved on and yet he was still stuck on the first part of moving on.

His mom was scared for him. She couldn't eve call Amelia now to help him. Because she was gone.

The only person he woukd sometimes talk to was Demetri. He had tried talking to demetri , after what amelia had told him. but they would barley conversate.

Hawk woukd forever have his heart broken. With a hole in it.

And he knew it would heal eventually. but it wasn't soon.

He woukd visit her everyday. and he even bought the perfume she used so he could smell her every once and there.

Even her favorite candle.

He just wanted to hug her. That was all he wanted.

But all he got was pushing people away. Even robby would sometimes visit him. but there was no luck.

he was by himself, lonley and sad. while his dead girlfriend was happy wherever she was.

ans that's the only place he wanted to be in. with her.

anywhere with her.
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𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗲𝗻𝗱. 𝗜𝗺 𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗿𝗵 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘁 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀.

𝗔𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝘆 𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗸𝘀 𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝗵𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗶𝗹𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝗮 𝗵𝗮𝗽𝗽𝘆 𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴.

𝗶 𝗵𝗼𝗽𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝘂𝘆𝘀 𝗲𝗻𝗷𝗼𝘆𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗸.

𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘀.

𝗦𝘁𝗮𝘆 𝘀𝗮𝗳𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝘆𝗱𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱.

𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼𝗻𝘁 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝘃𝗲.

𝗔𝗹𝘀𝗼 𝗶 𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝗰𝗿𝗴 𝘄𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗹𝗼𝗹.

𝘀𝘁𝗮𝘆 𝘀𝗮𝗳𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗲𝘀.
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𝗮 <𝟯