Forbidden: Sapnap x Reader

Prologue

Y/N still remembers the cold, dark stare of her father. He was always so disapproving of her, even at a young age. He would call her useless and lazy, but would then make her do an innumerable amount of chores. She was only six. It got even worse when her mother left her, everyone told her it was for the better, but Y/N still felt some sort of jealousy. She didn't want to die, of course, she just didn't want to be with her father anymore. When she and her father were...separated, that jealousy was then replaced with fear, when she knew she now had nowhere to go.

 She remembered her mother, only slightly, but still remembered her short H/C hair, and how when she smiled, the corner of her eyes would crinkle. When she was working, she would sing her special song, about a hidden waterfall. Y/N still had the song lyrics engraved in her thoughts, and would often find herself humming the sweet melody while doing housework. 

And then, of course, there was Tommy. Tommy is Y/N's older brother, Y/N loved him, but he reminded her of her father, with his blond hair and deep blue eyes. When she saw her father in them, she often had to look away, so he wouldn't see the disgusted expression she always made when she thought of him. He was different now, and of course, he would be, now that he matured, but he was different more to the fact that he knew that he and Y/N had been abandoned. 

Now, he never seemed to show any sort of emotion. Well, Y/N supposed that wasn't entirely true, but he did lack any sort of showing emotion on his face, which stressed Y/N out. The only one he had ever shown any sort of emotion towards was Wilbur, a sort of older brother figure for Tommy, as well as Y/N. Sometimes, though she would never admit it, Y/N felt left out when seeing Tommy and Wilbur hang out, but would never threaten to spoil her brother's happiness, especially with how little he showed.

Then comes Philza, the only parent figure Y/N had. He was the one who had taken in Y/N and Tommy after their parents were gone. Philza and Wilbur were blood-related, which you would think would cause some sort of favoritism in the family, but that never seemed to be the case. Philza always joked about who he would pick if they were taken hostage, but Y/N was always scared to think what he would do if that ever happened. 

The DreamSMP had only ever taken hostages once, and that was when they took Fundy. Y/N had cried for days, even after his return. After that, she noticed no one let Fundy go anywhere alone. In the same way, Tommy never let her go alone either.