Deep breath. In. Out. Open right hand, clench shut. Open, clench. Faster, faster. Slower, slower.
Fuck this is happening too often.
" Need another shot?" I hear Max say with a side eye already sliding some pink....thing at me.
"When do I not?" Trying to sound lighter and convincing then I need to be around him.
Looking down at the pink liquid " I'm sorry do I look like someone who drinks bitch drinks?" I say downing it anyways
"Im calling it the y/n sparkle" max says hopefully
" Oooooh to match my eyes. Flirting will get you nowhere good sir" I say trying to stay light.
"One day you will give in. Im just too cute." Max says trying his best to not sound as desperate as he clearly is.
With a sad smile I just say " haha maybe one day keep dreaming green eyes and keep them coming I guess I'm on in 45 before I have to deal with Reese."
Max looks down disapprovingly " mmhmm"
Five more y/n sparkles later and I go to check my bag. Full of the meds from my doctor that I don't take and the cash from that last job should be enough for Reese. I know the deal. Sing a few songs till the drunks get comfortable to sing on their own then I can go in the back to Reese. He gets what he wants and I get my quiet. No more noise. No more voices. Feelings. Tingles.
Fuck I need another shot.
"MAX! One more before I go on" I shout but hes already sliding it down. I down it and head to the stage.
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FanfictionCover credit to the amazing abbie!! Thank you! This is a y/n - loki vs Bucky story Its too loud. Its too loud all the time. The voice helps but where does it come from? The shrink says its my ptsd made up from my lost memories but I dont know. Nigh...
