So we had this plan to go to a temple with couple of friends and him, it sounded safe to me, but my parents don't think so, they are concerned for my health amidst this Covid shit that is been going on. I can't fight my parents because they are concerned on my health which is purely okay since all they care about it me. But we planned to go in a car and return back safe. But everyone is against me, everything is against me. So now I am 99% sure I will not go, I thought it will be a chance to meet him, to see him after 3 whole months, to get a glimpse of him, hoping I would survive few more months just by looking at him. And here I thought I was okay to get Covid and even die, by just living one day as his girlfriend, one day of looking at him, one day of lying down on his shoulders, one day of interlocking my fingers with his, one day of just being his, one day of having him next to me, one day of knowing he is there for me, one day of knowing he is mine and only mine.
Is this the way of universe telling me we are not meant to be? And we are not right? And we won't be together? And I should not try anymore?
