off & on.

vol. 1

march 22nd, 2021

today was a hard day. faking smiles, laughs, energy. fake it all so they won't know. picking up tasks to stay busy and out my head. anything helps if you're me, bc everything falls apart when you're alone. trauma floods my mind like a flood. memories, pictures, old faces, places, smells. it all hits at night time. all the lies, screams, blood, sweat, and tears. it's like bugs crawling over your skin. it haunts you in your dreams and steals your breath. it's something you can't get away from .. no matter how hard you try. you give an arm and leg just to have one.