Even if you are a boy, I will still love you.

Chapter 9: I can't help but love you

Just as he was about to leave the room, An Ziyan stopped him, preventing him from even opening the room door. ‘I never had the intention of letting you go.’ Saying that, he swiftly lifted Mai Ding off his feet, carried him in his arms like a virgin bride and then throwing him on the bed.

‘You uncouth bastard. Are you forcing yourself on me? I will…’ AnZiyan silenced him with a kiss. And while he might have been rather rough with Mai Ding, his kiss, on the other hand, was soft and tender. It was this tenderness that made Mai Ding gave in. He held on tighter to An Ziyan’s hand. He was starting to respond to the kiss. If he hated me that much, he wouldn’t be kissing me this way, he thought, entertaining a glimmer of hope.

AnZiyan felt something poking him from below. Looking down he saw what it was. And with an evil grin on his face he said, ‘My dear classmate, you weren’t honest with me too.’

He’s such a mood-killer, Mai Ding thought. ‘Are we going to do it or not?’

‘So you are willing to give me your first time?’

‘At this stage, is there any point turning back? Furthermore, giving it to the person I love is something I won’t regret.’ Mai Ding seemed to have come to that realization pretty fast. ‘Just let go of me. I know what I need to do.’

AnZiyan let go of Mai Ding. He was curious to see what Mai Ding would do next.

Mai Ding blushed as he removed the rest of his clothing. Once he was naked, he laid on An Ziyan’s bed, his ass thrusting in Ziyan’s direction. Closing his eyes, he said, ‘You can do that to me now.’ In fact, Mai Ding didn’t know what he needed to do. He had a rough idea. He knew that the first time was going to be painful for him and so he was getting himself mentally prepared.

AnZiyan couldn’t help it but laughed. ‘You are really an idiot.’

‘Stop laughing at me. You are just being mean.’

AnZiyan turned Mai Ding around, making sure that he was now facing him. He started to kiss Mai Ding all over: starting with his face, then his neck, slowly going down.

A strange feeling was overwhelming Mai Ding. It was only when Ziyan started to caress a particular region that Mai Ding started to moan, ‘Mmm… Yes… Not that part…not there…ah… ah…yes…’ Mai Ding felt like he was melting in An Ziyan’s mouth. He was grabbing onto An Ziyan’s back tightly, his own body trembling with pleasure. The scene around him started to get fuzzy. His focus was only on An Ziyan.

All of a sudden, Mai Ding felt something entered him, but there was no pain! Thinking that An Ziyan was already in him, he blurted out, ‘There’s no pain! Is yours that small?’

AnZiyan’s face blackened and responded by using more force on Mai Ding, sending a sharp pain through Mai Ding’s body. Mai Ding’s eyes dilated and upon looking down, he realized that An Ziyan had not actually entered him but he was just using his finger.

After a while, thinking that Mai Ding was ready, An Ziyan entered his new lover without giving him prior warning. At first, Mai Ding was lying there comfortably enjoying the bliss of his first sexual experience, but when An Ziyan entered him for real this time, he shouted in pain, ‘Aaaaaaah! Paaaaain! P-please be gentle!’ he now realized how ‘big’ AnZiyan really was.

‘It’s going to be painful whether I am gentle or rough.’ AnZiyan said very matter-of-factly.

‘Aaaa…Stop saying that… Aaa… Ok, quick come out. I want to stop!’ Mai Ding pleaded.

‘That’s not for you to ask.’ How could An Ziyan stop now?

‘It…is…so…pain…ful… An…Zi…Yan…’ Mai Ding was grimacing in pain, trying to endure the white-hot fire that was piercing him. But after a while, the pain gradually gave way to pleasure. And now with An Ziyan caressing his entire body, his fingers dexterously bringing him to newfound places, Mai Ding was enveloped by the heat of passion and decided to surrender all to An Ziyan.

‘You look like you’re enjoying it now.’ AnZiyan teased. He could see that Mai Ding was no longer in pain.

‘You’re just despicable.’

And this went on throughout the night, until Mai Ding, exhausted from the throes of passion, collapsed into An Ziyan’s embrace and fell asleep.

***

The next morning, Mai Ding woke up with a start and was frantically trying to put on his pants. The commotion he caused woke An Ziyan in return. ‘What’re you doing?’ Ziyan asked, frowning.

Mai Ding looked at An Ziyan and for some reason, especially thinking about what the both them did the night before, he felt a little embarrassed. His ass was still a little sore. ‘If I don’t leave soon, your girlfriend will find out about us.’ It felt like he was the third party in the relationship.

‘But she is studying in the States.’

‘Oh.’ Mai Ding sighed in relief, falling back into bed. ‘So what does that make us then?’ This was on Mai Ding’s mind the whole morning.

‘What do you think?’

‘I am the one asking you. Furthermore, if I asked you for it, will you agree?’

AnZiyan used one arm to prop his head up. ‘Let’s hear it.’

‘I want to be in a relationship with you. You won’t agree, right?’

‘I’m ok with that.’

That shocked Mai Ding a lot. He wasn’t hoping for anything actually. It was meant to be a half-joke. But he actually agreed? Was he serious? AnZiyan had no expression on his face whatsoever. No one could tell if he was being serious. To Mai Ding, it was downright ludicrous. How was it possible?

‘You are good looking and you have so many girls going after you. Why would anyone like you go out with me?’ Mai Ding had to ask.

‘You look so normal and no one is going after you. So why wouldn’t you go out with me?’ AnZiyan retorted, almost matter-of-factly.

‘You’re mad.’ He rebutted. And in a sheepish way, he collected his clothes and left An Ziyan’s house.

On the public bus home, Mai Ding couldn’t help but laugh. ‘He actually said he wants to be with me.’ Still surprised that he heard what he had heard. On that journey, he was like a bi-polar patient: one moment quiet, the other laughing to himself. ‘Why does he like me?’ He laughed again to himself. ‘And of all people…it is An Ziyan!’

The people seated next to him were rather disturbed.

Suddenly all the worry, all the frustration, ebbed away. The bright light of hope was shining on Mai Ding. Every corner of his universe was filled with inexplicable warmth.  The worries about the past or future had no power over him. Nothing in this world could change how he felt. No one could ever stop him. Yes, no one, no time, no place, nothing could ever stop Mai Ding from loving An Ziyan. Right now, he just wanted to love him the best he could. After all, being together with An Ziyan was itself already a blessing.

**to be continued...