a little riddle

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"promise to tell.. kids about me?" she said letting go of pansy's hand like she had no more energy to hold on to, "love them for me" she was crying

"please not right now, don't leave me" it's not happening right now, there's no way, not right now, not to my Olivia

"look press on to this" I grab her hands pressing at the place blood was coming out the most, "don't let it go do you hear me?"

She just simply nods and cry's in pain, the robe on her, I rip it apart wrapping it around it so maybe blood flow would slow down

"it's too.. late for that" she tries to laugh and look to her side, Pansy

"Hey hey look at me, don't close your eyes" I cried out, her hands slid over her stomach falling right on the floor

"I love you" all she whispered before shutting her eyes closed, her wet eyelashes and her mouth covered in blood, dripping down her neck and cheeks

"Open your eyes Olivia" my hands go around her shoulders, trying to wake her up, maybe there's still a chance maybe she will just open her perfect eyes

She's not with me anymore, it's just another body covered in blood lying in the library, "I need you to.. come back" I couldn't believe my own eyes, I wanted to cry, I wanted to die and I wanted to kill someone

She's the only girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, I couldn't move or breathe. I was just quiet and my whole body in shock from it. With every sob and blink, I could see her happy face, her soothing voice, her touch but my hands shaking would bring me back to the reality

With every tear, her body became colder and numb. She dried up blood right beneath her bottom lip I was completely overwhelmed with loneliness. For seconds I was trying to pinch myself if this is real or not but every time I looked at her face, guilt was on it

It was my fault

It's my fault she's here

It's my fault she's dead

Nothing but horror was spiraling through my mind like a roller coaster. I don't know if I was shaking or hot all I knew I was freezing, it was so cold here. How am I supposed to carry this pain and grow her kids without her? A beam of sweat dripped my hair and back of my palms as I looked down my hands covered in blood.

Her blood.

I could still hear the dust and echos of people mourning deaths and happy cheers of winning, but nothing compared to this. I told her so many times to stay home not come but she would not listen to me

Look where it got her

Not only I lost Olivia, but I also lost my best friend, I lost the mother of my children, I lost the girl I loved to most and I lost the most important person to me in this whole world

The whole time I was living a lie, if Snape lives through it I'm going to fuxking kill him for lying to me all those years and everyone else involved with it

Nothing was holding me together anymore, I stood there on my knees over my wife's dead body just looking down and crying. It felt like the air was choking me, I didn't even have a tie on me