𝐌𝐘 𝐂𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 | 𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒉𝒖𝒂 𝒃𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒕𝒕

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑. 𝟑𝟐

I have yet to find another girl
Who fits me like a glove
Before you I'd never known the feeling
Of unrelenting love
In between the fights and loneliness
Painfully, you tell yourself you are not worthy of their love
Turning me into a spiralling confusion
You're simultaneously the problem and solution !!! – nice one joshy
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Him being proud of himself for that last lyric, I couldn't tolerate his adorability.
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TITLE – (NOT) RIGHT NOW

I know it's not, not right now
But I will find a way for us to be somehow
And though it won't, won't be soon
You can bet your ass, I'm coming back for you
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TITLE - ???

You're the kind of girl that makes me write
The kind of silly love songs that we secretly both like
And I'm not one for falling at first sight
But something in your eyes says that it's more than just tonight

And when it comes to loving you
I'm not afraid to fall too soon
It's easy when you do the things you do...
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Her fave singer is taylor – reference ??
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TITLE – HEAVEN IS YOU
SHE IS !  PRIORITY !!!

I always heard there was a heaven
I never knew if it was true
But darlin', ever since I met you
I know that heaven is you

ADD – lately I've been questioning my faith
          just one look at u is all it really takes <33
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TITLE - Grocery store meeting song?

I met you tryna get groceries
And we exchanged timid niceties
From the first second you were such beauty I'd never seen
Thank god your brother ditched you in Aisle 15
So you had to come all the way to find me
And from there I knew what my inspiration was going to be

And now, you might think you hold me back
But right bedside you is where I feel safe
You hold all the calm and the care that I lack
You don't hold me back but oh, you move me
So can you be there for whatever I face
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TITLE – idk...but it's Jordan isn't it

I wish you all the best
Cause lord knows you deserve it
And it took me time to see
But I understand
The best just isn't me
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...I'm not about to cry. Everyone else is, but that couldn't be me.

It took me almost half an hour to take it all in. The number of times I switched between Notes and Voice Memos to hear the matching melodies to his lyrics, or him randomly making up melodies for 8 seconds and adding a little giggle at the end. I could even picture the moments I grew suspicious when he typed away quickly once I was leaving, or the very first time I saw him experimenting with notes into his phone, in the grocery store parking lot.

This had been how he'd seen me all these months, this was an insane way of being able to see his heart and mind through all of it. Instead, I would always be assuming what he felt, what he'd prefer, what he must've thought was best. All of that being without me in the picture, for his own career or whatever.

I let out a breath – almost as if it relieved all the tension of these past days - as I lowered the phone, tears puddling in my eyes.

"I'm such an idiot."

─── · 。ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

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40 VOTES??? would die tyvm

Y'ALL I'M SO SORRY FOR BEING MIA ON HERE FOR OVER A MONTH. pandemic really do be hitting my motivation with a bat.

BUT FINALLY SHE CAN GO TO THE BALL AND WE WILL SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN WITH ADDIE AND JOSH...but don't forget about Jordan sksksk

DID YOU LIKE IT?? Either way thanks for reading sissies I'll see you in the next one!!